Body modification is my life. If it has a whole � I want to see or be around it. I have always been infatuated with body modification/ body art. Growing up around the religion of Jehovah's Witnesses did not surely help my ways of wanting body art.
At A Glance Author Taneeka T. Contact [email protected] When Five years ago Artist Myself Studio Article Location Raleigh,NC My infatuation for body modification began when I was eleven going on twelve. I had always been told that piercing and tattoos were a fad and would soon go away but then I think about it now and there are African tribes that use such piercing to identify themselves. I know that body modification is not a fad and will be around for many years to come.
Body modification, to me, is expressing the body by decoration. Decoration of many different varieties of branding, piercing, suspension, tattooing, and many more ways. Body modification is not only for the satanic, Jewish, or patriotic but also for everyone that believes the body may be decorated beautifully.
Which it comes to losing your own mother to cancer you don't know what to do anymore. After my mom died, I had to move in to a new house, a new school, and now living with my dad and stepmother � those whom I don't know at all. My outlook on everything has changed. I did not imagine myself wanting to have any piercing before now.
It all started when I began the seventh grade. I began to change my appearance. I began to go through depression, and would inflect pain on myself through self-mutilation for dropping grades; bad test scores, or anything that was below myself image that I had built on to myself.
Slowly, self-mutilation would be more than expressing my pain and anger that had been built up inside, but more to show my love for someone, I would constantly carve guy's names in my arm or leg.
Self-mutilation carried on through my freshmen and sophomore years in high school. Soon, I turned to my love of body modification that I had had ever since I was twelve. I never thought of BME as my gateway out of my life of misery.
I started to visit this website twice to three times a day, to read the person experiences, read news articles, and view the pictures of beautiful pictures. I began to love body modification all over again. This websites showed me that there are people that are like myself, that have been through the things I have been through, but finally a place where people admit it and are not ashamed of the way they are or the things they have done in the past.
I started to order needles, gloves, sea salt, barbells, and other products for aftercare. After piercing my tongue, I got this seriously intense adrenaline rush. I also have the rush when I get a piercing or see one being performed.
Once I had my tongue pierced, I felt that the pierce of stainless steel in my mouth meant everything to me and that I needed more and more until I was satisfied. Later, I ran across the septum piercing and then after doing the research, I got that piercing also.
After all these years of being a BME fan, I never knew that this is what I love and want to be more involved in. I have been reading piercing books on the correct placement, history, aftercare, clean up, set up, sterilization, etc. and I have also bough videos to watch how a professional will pierced a customer and how the pierce interacts with the customer to make them feel relaxed and trustworthy. The books and videos are a big help for advancing my body modification knowledge also.
My love for body modification jumped to a new level. Once I am eighteen, my fianc�e and I intend to enroll at Fakir's Institute for Body Piercing and I will also enroll at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill to study oncology.
I have found this website to be my source to escape for a little while. I know that this is my escape from my suicidal thoughts.
My words to all is that is you feel that you have nothing to live for, that you are nothing, that no one cares, that life is hell, etc. always visit these websites and you will finally know that the people at these website do care about you and are there whenever you need someone to talk to I encourage anyone that feel this way to subscribe to these websites so you may communicate with others or even if you don't feel that way because the best kinds of person to talk to is one you have the same thing in common with because you all will get along and have the best conversation.
A community is a group of people having similar interest and/or work. This website is truly a community of people that are there to help each other and that is something that they will do because they care.
Even thought we don't know each other we all have a loving passion for body modification/ body art and now to me that is all that matters in life.
BME is the best website I have ran across. Thanks BME for everything. Shannon and others have saved my life by making BME. Thanks. Love - Taneeka T. from Raleigh, NC