Ever since I was a little girl (which, let's face it, wasn't that long ago), I have always wanted things pierced. First it was my ear lobes, and they eventually got gunned at age 9. After I got them pierced, I swore I would get my nose pierced next, because it was so pretty. But I never did, and so got my second pair of lobes pierced, two helix's, and just recently, my rook. I have also always wanted tattoos - I got a temporary tattoo from a pop music magazine one day when I was about eight, and I kept the design until I was sixteen, when I got it permenantly tattooed on my lower belly. But despite always wanting to be modified, I'd never really thought about it in heavy detail, until earlier this year.
At A Glance Author kellybubblefish Contact [email protected] When N/A I've never known what I wanted to be when I "grow up", and so it always changed from month to month. If I liked learning and didn't mind being a student for ages, I would definitely be a forensic pathologist, but I do hate learning, and so that went out of the window. Then, I wanted to be an editorial photographer (even though I'm STILL not sure what one is). It was only in January, when I was waiting in the local piercing studio for my friend to get her nipples pierced, when it hit me. Boy, I want to be a piercer!
If I was any good at art, I'd prefer to be a tattooist. I can doodle a good tribal image now and again, but there's no way I could ever be any good at it. Instead, I toyed with the idea of being a piercer. One day I stumbled across this freaky looking website with some dude on it, bleeding away. At first I thought it was sick, but I bookmarked it anyway. The next day I was bored, so I decided to check this website out. It suddenly dawned on me that everything I'd ever wanted to know (and a lot I didn't really want to know) was all on this one site, and I quickly got hooked.
First I just looked at the pictures and nearly fell over when I saw things out of the norm. When I first saw a uvula piercing it was just minging. But now, I want one!! And then I saw suspensions and blood and it was just so vile to me. But now, I really do want to do a suspension. It's just so intriguing. I'm not ready for one now, but when I'm older and a little wiser, I definitely will be interested. And then, I found interest in scarification - as a self-harmer myself, I'd never imagined that scars could be so pretty. I'd just always though of them to be such a bad thing, and then I started seeing pictures of the most elaborate designs, which had healed into the most beautiful patterns. In time, I will be doing a scarification of my own, but again, I'm just not ready for it. I'm not over my self-harming ways yet, despite it being at least six months since I last cut.
All in all, it's been seven months since I found BME, and I've never stopped being hooked. I still find things out of the norm, and sometimes, boy, do I gasp! There are just so many amazing things on here. Sometimes, I think I've seen everything, and that nothing could shock me, and then an eye implant pops up and I'm taken back by it's beauty. I just could never even imagine more than half of the content of this website. Ever. And it's only recently when I've realized just how much this one little website means to me.
In January, sitting in that piercing studio, I would have never imagined the world that has opened up to me. As a result, I've become so much more open-minded and careful in what I say or do. I've grown as a person. It's so odd to think that this one "sick" website that I stumbled upon one day could have changed me and my life so much. And it's not going to end, either. I'm still learning and growing, and when I do turn eighteen, I'll experiment and have more experiences than I do now. And it's so odd to think that I do still want to be a piercer, because normally I give up one job idea and move on to another. I just wanted to write this to say thank you to BME. And that's to everyone involved in any sort of way - all the pictures, all the experiences, and especially the IAM community which have been so informative and just generally a good bunch of people. You've all helped me to realize who I am, and fueled my dreams.