So I'm a Freak?
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Author Christina
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I didn't make the Honor Roll today. I feet horrible. I haven't missed it in 4 years. My GPA is a 3.9, but yet that is still not acceptable. You also need a conduct grade of 90% or higher. I was given an 89%. All that hard work I put into getting good grades went down the drain. You must be wondering why I'm making such a big deal of not making the Honor Roll. The only reason is because of my ears and judgmental teachers.

I go to a private Catholic school. There are ridiculous rules which I am expected to follow. I did my best not to break any rules. I've never had a detention in the past 8 years I attended school. There are usually about 5 kids at graduation who are praised for having a clean record. This year there will be only 4.

I got my first detention this year when I wore cbrs in my second lobe piercing. Everything went fine that day until my history teacher stopped me. Apparently I'm not allowed to have a second lobe piercing. This got me infuriated. I had the second set pierced 3 years ago. 7 other girls in that very class had a second set. She gave me the detention form and I asked her for the reason of it. She simply said that my ears were too "distracting" and many students would be looking at my ears rather than paying attention in class. That was the worst bull shit I ever heard. When I asked if she was giving the other girls detentions she said no. "Diamond studs are more feminine and natural looking than those thick rings."

During detention I was forced to copy the student handbook by hand. I flipped through the whole handbook looking for the rule about having a second lobe piercing. It wasn't in there. I asked my homeroom teacher about it and he said that a rule necessarily didn't have to be in there in order to be given a detention. I now have to remove my rings whenever I go to my history class. The next day I received another detention. This time it was for my plugs in my first lobe piercing. The worst part was that she gave it to me in front of the whole class. She could have at least given me the decency of telling me after class like she usually does to the other kids. She wanted to degrade me and make me feel small next to her. It didn't work. It just made me feel angry and disgusted.

In my defense let me tell you that they are relatively small at 4 gauge. I wear pink silicone plugs that don't really stick out. "I will not tolerate those obscene earrings. They make you look like a freak." I said: "Whatever happened to our school saying? 'Christ is the reason for this school.' Wasn't Jesus accepting of everyone?" She was pissed. I was given another detention for contradicting her. I wanted to cry. "Whatever ever happened to you? You used to be so agreeable," she said. Well I'm sorry for being an individual who doesn't want to look like everyone else. The school is now adding the rule "You may only wear 1 pair of small stud earrings in your earlobe" to the handbook.

On my report card my teacher wrote that I am rebellious and I don't dress modestly. How is wearing earrings considered rebellious? She said that I give off the appearance of a gangster or drug dealer. She told me that she'd be disgraced if I was seen wearing my uniform out of school. She says that this school does not associate with freaks. Apparently God wants to condemn me to Hell. I believe in Catholicism but this is going way too far. None of my other teachers will stand up for me. I hope this school gets some better teachers. I'll be glad when I graduate.

So many people are getting away with things that should be written up. Girls with their hair dyed. Girls with skirts 6 inches above the knee. Guys having their shirts untucked. Guys talking on their cells on campus. But yet I get written up for my ears. For my unnatural freakish ears. At graduation I will be one of the many who did not make Honor Roll every time since the 4th grade. My mom is ashamed. She never yelled or actually said she was ashamed but she's not talking to me. She's mad that I'm not going to have the gold cord for missing the Honor Roll just once. I don't care anymore. I'm proud of standing up for what I believe in. I still love being different with my wonderful ears.


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