Shannon Larratt Interview [The Publisher’s Ring]


Shannon Larratt Q&A


“Man is a make-believe animal: he is never so truly himself as when he is acting a part.”

– William Hazlitt

After a quite some time of people suggesting it, I’ve finally done my own Q&A column. All of these questions were submitted by IAM members, and I hope I’ve done an acceptable job answering them. Before you read this, please understand that these are just my personal views. The site is made up of a wide range of people with an incredibly diverse set of beliefs, and this is just one of many of them. So please don’t be terribly offended if you don’t agree with one of my views.

Please excuse the pretentiousness of some of the answers.

 

shawn.spc: Do you remember what you did four days ago?

No, I don’t. My memory lasts between five minutes and a few hours most of the time, although I do of course have a dotty memory of events, but it’s unclear, muddled, and not in chronological order. While I’ve done my best to structure my life in a way that makes this unimportant, it is very damaging to my social relationships. It makes it hard for me to know who I know, who I can trust, who I shouldn’t trust, and who is lying to me or telling the truth. I have to rely on notes, automated assistance, and of course Rachel to get by.

It also makes it extremely difficult for me to write longer essays because when I’m writing them and proof-reading them I can’t remember more than a few paragraphs at a time, so I tend to repeat myself a lot. To combat that I try and write an outline and just expand it gradually, writing a sentence at a time and “filling in the blanks” as I go. I program the same way at this point — one of the good things is this all has forced me to start properly documenting my code!


Anonymous: What is it in Rachel that makes you think she is so amazing and spectacular? Is she really pretty in person or is it just fancy camera work on your part? Does she really “hold you together” as it says on the staff page?

Yes, absolutely. I don’t think people who don’t know me personally understand just how non-functional I am. While parts of me are totally supercharged and far outperform the average person, other parts of my life and persona are extremely troubled and hard for me to control. I think that part of the reason that I’ve worked so hard to have success in an independent lifestyle is that it’s put me in a position where these shortcomings are less relevant. Even still, they’ve progressed to the point now to where it is difficult for me to run my own life, and without her help I would probably fall apart. She’s incredibly intelligent and competent (it’s not as if she’s just “the girlfriend” — she’s an equal partner and probably does more day-to-day in running the site than I do) and her skills perfectly complement mine and I think vice-versa as well. (As an interesting side note, I’ve seen this same sort of partnership in both other programmers and in many body artists that I respect).

And yes, she really is that beautiful in person.


FroggerJenkins: Providing a service of this magnitude, while amazing, must be tiring. Do you ever regret launching BME?

Sometimes the amount of time I have to spend working depresses me, because I often get up at 6:30 AM and work late into the night. At this point I have very little time for anything of my own and it’s starting to wear on me. Sometimes I think as well about how much more money I’d have if I spent more time on work and less time on BME, but I’ve never regretted launching BME. I also think it’s important to note that I’m really just a facilitator or catalyst — I help direct where BME is going, but BME is an expression of thousands and thousands of people, not of me.


xMeMNoCHx: While I enjoy reading your diary posts and articles, a lot of them always seem to deal with darker subjects (the nature of the business I guess)… what in life right now enables you to take a step back and say “damn, it’s good to be me!”?

Not that I don’t enjoy being me, but I’m not sure that anything makes me say “it’s good to be me” in the sense of “rather than someone else”. Every one of us should be able to say that they enjoy being alive. Unfortunately many of us are imprisoned by society and are unable to fully be ourselves and express the things we need to, and thus become miserable.


That said, I did go yacht shopping today, and until we moved back to the city Rachel and I did have matching “his and hers” Porsches. We’re both very hard workers and have always been financially rewarded for doing so. This has allowed us to do things for our friends and community that make us happy, and it lets us raise our daughter without a financial spectre always over our heads. I am very grateful for this.


Uberkitty: If you could suggest a single book to the entire world what would it be? What about suggesting all the writings of a single author?

I highly recommend “The Good Life” by Scott and Helen Nearing. If any single book influenced major change in my life that is probably it. His other books are brilliant as well. I also think everyone needs to read “War is a Racket” by Major General Smedley Butler (which you can read for free online), an anti-war essay written between the first and the second world war. People hear it so much that it must read like a cliché, but those who don’t learn from history really are doomed to repeat it. So more so than focusing on individual authors, I think it’s essential that people read classics, especially those that touch on the issues we believe are “new” or politically relevant today.


ServMe: From what I’ve seen and read, you seem to be living proof that as long as you want to accomplish something bad enough, you can. I suppose that as most other humans you have failed at things, so do you see those failures as the end of something, or just as an intermediary step towards reaching your goal — or coming up with something even better?

I’m not sure if there’s such a thing as success or failure in the way that most people use it. Sure, sometimes a task works the way you wanted it to, and sometimes it doesn’t. But I’m not entirely convinced that the purpose of life is to “win” — I think the purpose of life is more to discover, accept, and experience being alive (and I think body modification is a tool in achieving that for some people). Failure is a part of that, and while I don’t seek out failure, I do my best to appreciate it when it occurs. The only real failure is not appreciating being alive, and there are of course days where I have that failure.


serpents: You have very strong, well-thought out opinions, and very persuasive ways of making those known. You also have a fairly strong natural magnetism of person. You also speak of your narcissism fairly regularly. It’s obvious that despite your best effort, it does seem that a “cult of Shannon’s personality” tries to form itself within IAM members from time to time in that a proclamation from you is instantly carried on high by the masses as gospel, and people who were only moments ago defending their attitudes to the death can sometimes backpedal just as fast to align themselves with your opinions. The question is what keeps you from totally taking advantage of it, setting up an island nation and proclaiming yourself god-king before an adoring mass of followers?

I don’t want followers. Followers are not interesting travel partners in life. I hope that if people back-peddle on their statements because of something I say it’s because they’ve considered what I said, debated it for themselves, and come to a similar conclusion as I did — just believing something “because Shannon said so” is foolhardy. I’m sure I say stupid stuff all the time and I hope that people respect themselves enough to be able to decide on their own which of my words are right for their life and which are not. I have no desire to lead anyone anywhere, although I’m thrilled when people decide to follow a parallel path, and if something I’ve said or done has helped them find it, I’m honored to have been able to do so.


lilfunky1: Have you ever tried to make someone (such as your parents) try and understand the reasons behind your modifications? Did you give up? Or was it never any of their business?

If people understand themselves, then they will understand me as well. The key to understanding what makes other people work is understanding what makes oneself work. While I can try and help others learn about themselves, when it comes right down to it, they have to do it on their own. The people in my family who understand me are the ones that understand themselves.


Netzapper: Would you support a measure (enacted by the United Federation of Planets, Q Continuum, God, or some similarly omnipotent organization) to replace all of the world’s firearms, missiles, artillery, etc. with swords, ballistas, trebuchets, etc.?

When I first read this question I interpreted it as a swords into plowshares question. So my first answer is one to an imaginary question.

Well, that did of course happen in Japan in 1588 when Hidéyoshi and his samurai banned the ownership of swords and firearms by all but the noble classes. They scoured the country telling the people that the swords were going to be melted down and turned into a giant statue of Buddha. Of course, once the swords and guns were all in the hands of Hidéyoshi, they were instead turned into a giant statue of him, and Japan has been a police state ever since.

Sometimes freedom and liberty have to be defended, and I don’t believe that will ever change. Giving up our ability — and our fundamental right — to do so is suicidal.

But in terms of the question that you actually asked, history hasn’t shown us that forcing soldiers to kill each other in hand to hand combat versus from afar reduces the amount of death or increases the “personal responsibility” the soldiers feel for that death. If anything, it makes it worse. So no, I don’t believe such a transformation would be positive


UrgentClunker: How would you define failure, and what would you consider your biggest failure to date?

Failure is not enjoying the game of life. Any time I get depressed and let my fears get the best of me, that’s when I’m failing. An interview bombing, a car accident, a poorly written article: none of those are failures. The only failure is when you don’t enjoy failing (not that one shouldn’t try and “win” every time). If I’m understanding him correctly, my father’s core lesson to my siblings and I was that life is the ultimate game, and victory comes first from enjoying it and second from coming out in first place (and that if you have to kill a hobgoblin, you must make sure he can scream his death scream on the battlefield to open the doors to hobgoblin heaven).


snackninja: Have you ever considered running for political office? What level of government would you feel most comfortable in?

I believe running for political office is an honorable aspiration, and I considered running for the office of mayor in Toronto on a secessionist platform to make Toronto a partially independent city-state. I still think it’s the right thing for both Toronto and Canada, and I’m starting to see more mainstream political groups making noise along the same lines. However, my extreme views on many subjects coupled with my appearance would make it very difficult for me to run for office. There are better ways for me to independently facilitate political change in the world.

What was the first concert you ever saw? The best one?

The best concert I ever saw was during Mojave 3’s first tour (although their final concert in Toronto as Slowdive was incredibly emotionally moving). Not including stuff I saw as a kid, I think the first concert I ever went to was the Sonic Youth tour promoting Goo.

What do you think the next major evolutionary change that the human race will experience will be?

Humans have remained largely unchanged through catastrophes of immense magnitude such as the most recent Ice Age. Humans are successful because we’re smart, but also because we’re incredibly adaptable. So I think it’s unlikely that we’ll see any natural evolution occurring. However, I do think it’s very likely that we’ll tinker with ourselves genetically more and more. It’ll start with gradual improvements — smarter, stronger, healthier, and able to survive in more hostile environments. Whether that eventually takes us into a form other than human, I don’t know. I hope I get to see some of it in my lifetime.

I think the changes facing humanity are more likely to come from our escalating technology. We’re on the cusp of entering space, and cities in orbit, on the moon, and on neighboring planets will very likely come in our lifetimes. We are also facing the risk of increasingly versatile, adaptable, and extremely intelligent machines who could potentially replace us inside the same time period. The Japanese are making terrifying progress in this, and I don’t believe they have the technological checks in place to keep it from snowballing out of control. It’s a very dangerous game, and I think we are making a terrible mistake in barreling forward so recklessly. Whether they are our children (and thus the next step in “human” evolution), or if they’re a science experiment gone horribly wrong is a question for the robot philosophers of the 22nd century to debate.


Celestial_Horror: It seems that many of the most knowledgeable modified people at some point became professionals, and performed modifications on others. Was there ever a point where you considered a career as a piercer or artist?

I did briefly tattoo, which I enjoyed, but to be perfectly honest I’m very introverted and fairly sociopathic. I like seeing my friends, but only for short periods, and I do not enjoy being around strangers. As a piercer, tattoo artist, or other body modification practitioner, you have to be extremely comfortable working with all sorts of people to give them the experience they need. I do not believe that I have the ability to do that.

kamikuso: When did you first get into computers and programming, and how did you go about educating yourself?

My father was always involved in computing and telephony projects as far back as I can remember, and from about the time I was five years old, worked mostly at home. Because of that I got to be around some amazing minds at a very young age, and had hands-on and relatively unrestricted access to new technology. My parents were very careful not to let me or my brother fall into the trap of television, so programming became my entertainment. I was encouraged to learn and loved doing it. I did later spend some time at the University of Toronto in cognitive and computer science, which helped make me less of a “sloppy” programmer, but I think it’s still fair to say that I’m exclusively self taught.


hotpiercedguy: Do you ever wish you were more or less revered? Are you happy with what “celebrity status” you currently have?

I couldn’t care less whether people think I’m a rock star or not (anyone who’s met me in person knows I’m not), although it makes me a little sad when people revere me — they really should be revering themselves instead. There’s nothing in me that isn’t in them as well. That said, having some level of popularity has been useful in spreading the messages I try and get out into the public mindset.


MoDvAyNe: When you started the IAM community, had you ever considered that it would sprout and become a family for others interested in body modification?

I had no idea. I wrote the IAM software because I wanted a tool to maintain my own online journal. I really wasn’t expecting it to be so popular when I opened it up to everyone else as well, but I’m very happy that it was. So many unexpected blessings and life-changing events have come for so many different people thanks to the community that has formed on IAM.


Fidget: In retrospect, is there anything about BME or IAM that you would have done differently, but don’t feel like you can change now that it’s established?

There are some organizational things that I might have done differently, and technologies that evolved differently than I’d expected at the time. I’ve made alliances with people from time to time that have betrayed me or ripped me off, but really, I think all of us could list endless things like that. Other than correcting things like that, I don’t think I’d change anything. The sites’ missions have stayed the same since day one.


Reverence: For most people it’s hard to come out of their shell. Visible modifications are hard for people, as you know, since society places a lot on outward appearance. How long did take you and how much thought was put into your visible mods before you had the work done? Or did you not hesitate at all?

I didn’t put any thought into it at the time because it was who I was, if that makes any sense. I don’t have to justify my modifications to myself because they make sense and they feel right. The only time I’ve had to “make excuses” for my physical appearance is for periods where others have tried to convince me that the modifications were a mistake.

I’m sure there are many people out there who choose modification for fashion or social reasons, and that’s cool and I don’t have a problem with that, but I didn’t choose it. It’s how I was born and it’s who I am, and nothing can or will change that.

That said, I think that people should know themselves pretty well before they go making decisions that could have a harsh impact on the rest of their life. If the modifications they’re making are going to affect their ability to find employment or even fit into the social mainstream, they need to very seriously consider whether they want to make such an immense sacrifice.


Kraz_Eric: I’m interested most in your religious beliefs. I’ve read hints here and there, but nothing concrete.

At its simplest, I believe that we (on this planet) are all part of a single entity, and that we are as interconnected and as dependent on each other as the cells in our own bodies. I believe that this superbeing is what most religions call God, and I believe that we are all God and a part of God. I think most religions try and express this in their own way, but they err in taking the metaphors used to explain this phenomenon too literally and thereby cloud the true nature of the universe.


sadlyinsane: Do you ever worry about the influence that you and your site carry on a large group of a younger generation?

Not at all. I believe in what I’m saying, and I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t think it was the truth, so I have no problem with it influencing anyone, no matter what their age is. I also believe that young people are the future (duh!) and that they’re a lot smarter than adults give them credit for. If that’s who I have an influence over, great!


starspring: Has the look and layout of BME or IAM been determined or inspired by any particular method or design source?

I pretty much just try and keep it as simple as possible. I don’t think that any of my sites really stand out as graphic design masterpieces, but I hope they’re easy to use. In terms of what I do online, my goal is to get the content to as many people as possible, so that’s what influences the design decisions.


medlabchick: Most people know that you would love to live on a tropical island but have you ever thought about building a cabin in the middle of the forest in northern Ontario? Believe me, no one would find you there.

Hey, I’d love to live in a fortified compound in northern Ontario, but I fell in love with and married an American girl who’s spent her adult life living in places like Phoenix, Miami, and New Orleans. While I grew up in a wood-heated house in Canada and love the winter, she’s not quite the fan of it that I am.


jasonthe29th: for what social justice issue would you be willing to give up BME completely? For instance, if giving up BME stopped the death penalty or abortion would you do it?

BME is a part of who I am, and a part of the thousands of people who’ve helped create it. Justice is absolute. You either have it, or you don’t. You can’t have “a little justice”. Thus I don’t believe that you can give up one freedom in exchange for another.


Raistlyn: What are the pitfalls of running BME and IAM?

I believe that BME stays fully inside the law and is a responsible publication. However, there are hateful people out there that have such a problem with who they are themselves that they choose to attack BME to distract themselves from the things they need to fix inside themselves. Because BME is totally above-board, they are constantly fabricating and calling in fake charges to various authorities.

The only other pitfall is extremely long hours which to be honest is burning me out and I have to figure out a way to reduce that workload if I want to keep maintaining the entire site. That said, it’s far more of a positive experience than a negative one. I have some concerns about how the community is changing as time goes by, and whether some of what BME does is relevant or desired, but, for now at least, I’m staying on course and sticking with the plan!


frzamonkey: What is the one thing that we as IAM members do that you wish you could change?

I just wish people were nicer to another. It’s pretty pathetic to watch people who could be friends getting off on tormenting each other for no apparent reason other than enjoying seeing someone else in pain. That’s about the only thing that really bugs me, when people think that rather than curing their own pain, they’ll instead invalidate it somehow by making everyone around them hurt as well.


t.thomas: Do you feel life is dress rehersal for something larger?

I don’t believe that there is something larger in terms of heaven or anything like that. It’s already here and we’re already living in it… we just have to open ourselves to it. Joseph Campbell put it perfectly when he wrote, “People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances within our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.”


Erica: I remember that when you first did your modcode, you marked “I happily kill what I eat”. When and why did you become vegan?

I became vegan first for environmental reasons, kept with it for health reasons, and then stayed vegan long term for spiritual reasons. At the point I wrote that I was just transitioning to a fully vegan diet. Ethically, my primary problem was with factory farming and the truly brutal (and environmentally foolhardy) practices they employ, and morally I had real concerns that people were “hiding” the fact that a sentient living creature was giving up its life for our pleasure. I believe that if someone is going to eat meat that they need to embrace the death of that animal and on some level thank it for what it has given them. In the modern context, I don’t believe we can gain that awareness unless we are either raising our own animals for consumption and slaughtering them, or by hunting our own food. While I would not do it myself, I believe that by understanding the life-death-life cycles and taking an active and compassionate role in them one can perhaps justify eating meat, but at this point in my life I would not be able to bring myself to do so.


pella: I think I read some where that you studied art history at university. What are you favorite non-body mod related artists?

I’d like to think I appreciate good art from all eras, but I’m most partial to impressionists like Gauguin and Van Gogh, and as well to fauvism which of course grew from them. I like impressionist works quite simply because they’re beautiful and appeal to me aesthetically, and fauvism appeals to me emotionally.

Do you think a wider more in depth knowledge of not only body art but fine art is valuable for professionals in this industry?

I think an in depth knowledge of fine art and especially art history is valuable for people in all professions. Understanding the art that a culture produces is essential to understanding the context in which the events of the time happened — just knowing the time line is not enough. You have to be able to feel what the people living through it were feeling, and art is one of the only ways we have to transmit that information across time.


Cylence: Do you think it’s possible to take body modification too seriously? I mean, when you start referring to your eyebrow ring as “my transformative spiritual experience” and are willing to be unemployed and exiled from your family or commit suicide rather than take it out, has it gone too far? Obviously an extreme example but I think you see what I’m getting at. Can body modification become too much of a person’s identity, to the point where it is their identity?

I suppose one can take anything too seriously, but no, assuming the person is being honest with themselves, I don’t think you can ever take anything too seriously. “Transformative spiritual experiences” are often found in everyday events, and I would never question someone’s right to find value in that. If they’re wrong, their lie to themselves is far worse than their lie to me or you (since it’s really none of our business anyway). Clearly if someone is willing to ostracize themselves from their family and from society over their modifications they perceive them as extremely essential, and while I think it’s important to know oneself well enough to decide when something is healthy or unhealthy, cutting off someone’s medicine like that is rarely going to have a positive outcome. If someone needs modifications, I think they should be supported in that.


Shannon Larratt
BME.com

Why it’s important to let young people cut [The Publisher’s Ring]


Shooting the Messenger:
Why it’s important to let young people cut


There is perhaps no phenomenon which contains so much destructive feeling as moral indignation, which permits envy or hate to be acted out under the guise of virtue.

– Erich Fromm

Cutting and self-injury is all over the media lately, but because of its graphic nature, few who haven’t struggled with it themselves are able to think about it objectively, understand its roots, what makes it such an attractive path for some people, and how to turn it into something less destructive.

The most important thing to know about cutting is that cutting is not the problem. Cutting is a symptom of an underlying issue, as well as an attempt to survive that issue. It could be active abuse by a parent or partner. It could be work or school related stress. It could be unhappiness from not being socially better accepted or low-self esteem because a single stranger told them they were ugly when they were five years old. It could be as simple as they feel like they have no control over their lives and desperately want something to be inside their power. There are a million terrible things that can happen to a person, and from them a million reasons for cutting. Many cutters have built up such internal walls that they may not even be able to consciously face or name the things that make them cut. But, as murder victims scrawl out the name of the killer in their own blood, so do cutters inscribe the sins of their abusers in their flesh.



Song lyrics or accusation?

Below is a message I recently received about BME’s ritual cutting gallery.


From: Cobra McThunders
Subject: great site…until


hi, my names nicko, im 23, i just stumbled onto your sight and it’s cool, i really dig it, i’ve got 2 tats (traditional) and have always been into disturbing things so to speak, ever since that kid in 3rd grade eat ants i’ve been addicted to that OH MY GOD! feeling in your stomach where you think SICK! but some of the stories and images on your sight rub me the wrong way, dont get me wrong as horrified as i am by hanging by fish hooks, chemical burns,and scarification i understand that in a sterile professional enviroment it’s cool

but dont capitalise on the stories and pics of the cuttings and burnings that are from extreme abuse i read a story of a girl who burned im sorry into her leg, and pics of slicing a star in a leg that was obviously done at home, i didnt come to the site to get teary eyed and give a hug, you see where im getting at, dont go for the low blow, other than that great job.

and do you feel that posting these entries in the free area make it all the more dangerous for old cutters aswell as possible new ones waiting for the social exceptance that they need making the site, for a few, a place to show off there new so called pieces of art, im not a member and that is the reason, so here is where i tred into murky waters, dont you feel that your aiding destructive behavior? i knew a girl in high school who carved, and deep an (f-) f minus about 4 inches long and 2 inches wide above her fist to about her elbow, these are the ones that we have to protect as a society, and not give them a place to display there pain.

nicko k.

I get emails like this fairly regularly. I tried to ignore the generally insulting introduction and replied, “I totally understand where you’re coming from on this. I struggled with whether I should post these sorts of things for a long time. These people are already using cutting and ritual to somehow try and heal themselves. My hope is that by welcoming them into BME and by allowing them to talk about what they’re going through and what they do that they discover ways to channel those energies more positively.

The worry that the images on BME could “trigger” people is a fairly common one. To that I replied, “it’s definitely a worry, and I know it must trigger some people. However, they’re being triggered because there’s something there boiling under the surface. Suppressing it and trying to hide it doesn’t make it go away — it lets it fester until it erupts, sometimes suicidally.

I concluded by pointing out that “Stopping someone from talking about their pain doesn’t make it go away… That’s the most important thing to remember.

The conversation then ended fairly typically, with threats and condemnation, and the clear message that the person I was talking to was utterly ignorant to everything I was saying. Below is their (or their mother’s) final message to me. I get several emails threatening me like this a week on various subjects, so I wasn’t that surprised:


From: Cobra McThunders
Subject: Now you’ve got his Mom online


Dear Heart,

Let me let you in on a little secret, before you were speaking to my son. Now you speaking to his MOTHER.

I just took the liberty of sending your website, and your e mails to the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children, the FBI, and every police center, and child abuse center I could find.

You sick witch. How dare you cover your sorry excuse for a human being self by saying you are helping children, or that you are not liable.

You are an opportunist. A exploiter of children. You hide yourself behind some ignorant wall of superiority, trying to rationalize what you are. Allow me to help you, you are the scum of the earth. A person who participates in exploiting children.

We’ll see what comes of my letters, and phone calls. You just met yourself a real woman, and a good mom.

I hope you spend a long time in jail.

Jane

Unfortunately it’s unempathic attitudes like these that underlie the causes of cutting in the first place, and when persisted in can drive young people to acts far worse than cutting: suicide or even Columbine-type shootings as desperate attempts to end the real source of the pain.



SILENCED

Now, I’m not a doctor, nor am I a therapist. Keep that in mind as you read this — it is not medical advice. I have however faced (and I think bested) cutting myself, and I have corresponded with thousands of people who’ve gone through the same.


Why people cut

To put it very clearly: most people cut because they are being abused mentally or physically and the cutting helps them survive by making them feel alive and by allowing them to be the one controlling the pain. This abuse can be current, past, or sometimes just day-to-day stresses piled up past the breaking point. The people arguing most strongly to silence cutters by attacking the act of cutting are often the abusers themselves — making it an act not unlike a Mob boss killing a witness — and because of the stigmas attached to cutting, self-righteous parents like “Ms. Cobra McThunders” end up further abusing battered young people — and protecting and enabling those that brought out their need to cut in the first place.

When animals are taken from their natural environment and imprisoned in small cages or otherwise have their normal lives stolen from them, they develop obsessive and self-harming behavior. They walk over and over in circles, they tear out their own hair, they chew their feet until they bleed, they stop eating, or they become violent. It should be patently obvious in these cases that their self-harming behavior is a direct result of their captors not meeting their basic needs. Humans are no different, and many cutters feel imprisoned, abused, and misunderstood by their parents and others in positions of power over them.



CAGE: “15 bars for 15 years”

If a person is cutting themselves, you can bet there’s something wrong in their life, either actively or as an unhealed wound from the past. Their cutting is both a desperate attempt to communicate this to anyone who can hear them, as well as an attempt to seize some control over a life that they feel little connection to or power over. It is better to hurt yourself than to have someone else hurt you — if you’re the one doing it, it’s under your control, and it’s your decision.


The issue of “triggering”

It is absolutely true that some people cut themselves after seeing the photos of other cuttings on BME. I’ve even received pictures of people cutting with their computer visible in the background, tuned to the cutting gallery. It wouldn’t surprise me if some of them cut for the first time after seeing those galleries. However, those galleries are never the cause itself.

If a person is cutting it means that they are trying to find a solution and they are trying to find a way to cope. It also means that they’re trying to find that solution inside themselves rather than the far more common solution of turning to drugs or external validation like abusive or promiscuous sex. You know what? I think it’s a good sign if a person chooses to cut themselves before turning to drugs. It’s not a permanent solution, but it’s a lot better than many of the darker options.



Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t think it’s a good idea to cut. It’s dangerous, and it can leave you with marks that are extremely socially stigmatizing. It can also mask the real problem, give your abusers the excuse they need to compound the pain they already level at you, and even result in your psychiatric commitment or worse. Cutting is not a long term solution — but it is a warning that should be listened to, not silenced.

Imagine if people calling suicide hot-lines were hung up on because the operator sensed that they were in tears!


The real “cure” for cutting

If only the symptom (the cutting — which also serves as a survival tool) of a real problem is eliminated, then the person will try and resolve the problem in other ways — they may be driven to drugs, promiscuous sex, obsessive compulsive behavior, or even suicide — the third most common cause of death in teens. Under no circumstances is trying to force the cutting to end a solution in and of itself.



ALONE… LIES, PAIN… FEAR

I certainly concede that in most cases cutting is detrimental to a person’s life, but in the short term it is an essential safety net. However, in the long term it is equally essential that the cutter both try and find an alternative to cutting, and that ultimately they address the root cause. If the root cause is not addressed, the problems will escalate. I can not emphasize this enough. As long as the root stress is there (and there may be many different ones, and more may come in the future), the drive to cut will still be there. Thus, not only must the cause be addressed, but a better way to channel those energies must be found so the cutting does not repeat from the inevitable future wounds that all people face in life.


Alternatives to Cutting

It is very important to understand that cutting is a positive and life-affirming act which makes a person able to cope with their problems, albeit an act that is usually fueled by depression and almost always leads to other problems. However, the instinct to cut to feel, to cut to live, can not be cured any more than homosexuality can be “cured”. It is simply how some people naturally respond to certain kinds of stress. This can not be changed. That said, those of us who are cutters can — and must — learn to transform this symptom from something that potentially compounds the problem into something that not only makes our lives bearable, but actually improves our lives and makes us love being alive… even with the stresses.

Any crutch that is to replace cutting must retain that sense of empowerment and “aliveness”. There are two basic alternatives (I don’t consider medicating a person until they’re too numb to care a “solution”) — continue cutting but in a less stigmatizing form, or replacing the cutting with a totally different but equally satisfying act. The first option is probably more common among BME readers, and that is using guided body modification to channel those impulses into something that leaves an aesthetically pleasing result — scarification, tattoos, body piercings, and so on. With the aid of an experienced artist, the energies inside the cutter can be satiated through a form of cutting that results in subjectively beautiful artwork that helps a person to define themselves in an uplifting and empowering fashion. Many people find that this transition teaches them about the source of the problem, and assuming it isn’t ongoing, can heal the festering wounds that kept them cutting for so long.

This approach can also include cathartic acts such as suspension, play piercing, and flesh pulls to burn through those feelings in a supporting and safe context. However, in both of these cases it is important to keep in mind that the flaming rebirth of a phoenix from dead ashes to glorious life is not the same thing as the grim reaper deciding to wear a white robe instead of a black one. Or to speak less metaphorically, one should be wary about simply re-branding the problem into a more palatable form while leaving the compulsive behavior uncorrected.

In addition, not everyone wants to replace their cutting with another form of mutilatory self-medication. One solution that many people have tried successfully is exercise. Exercise connects a person to their body. Through the pain and effort, they become acutely aware of who they are and how they work, and most importantly, gain the realization that they have the power to transform themselves into anything they want to be. In many cases the resulting health and appearance benefits alone go a long way to solving underlying problems — as much as we inside this community try and distance ourselves from such statements, the fact is that beautiful people with beautiful bodies are not only more successful, but happier. Before you decide that is unfair, realize that every one of us can be beautiful if we just try.

I talked to former cutters who used exercise as a way to get their lives under control in a safer manner, and would like to share their comments here in their own words.


Currently I am studying for exams and the stress of it has exaggerated my tendency to self-injure. I don’t cut, I bite, scratch, and hit myself (but it amounts to the same thing — providing reassurance that I’m real, and giving me a sense of connection to my body). I have noticed that on the few days that I’ve chosen to do even a minimal amount of exercise the urge to self-injure has disappeared. For example, last week on the day before an exam, I walked briskly up and down my hundred foot garden fifty times. Afterwards I felt much more ‘of’ my body if that makes sense, and didn’t self-injure at one of the most high-risk times for self-injury for me.

***

I used to cut, and when I decided to stop whenever I wanted to cut again I started doing push ups and sit ups for as long as I possibly could. It was one of the only things that could get me to calm down. It worked wonders.

***

I have a treadmill that I run on sometimes. The burn of the run and the thrill of the run are enough to satisfy my desires that are usually solved by cutting. Afterwards, I feel better about myself because I am making my body more fit and more attractive. I am becoming stronger.

***

I used to cut and then I got involved in boxing. It slowly weened me off of cutting, although I was coming out of weight rooms with bloody knuckles. But, I was also much more emotionally ‘stable’ afterwards because I had gotten a lot of “numbness” out of me. Eventually I weened myself off of boxing as well, and only use it when I am utterly outraged (once every couple months).

***

I am a cutter and have been for over fifteen years. This last winter was one of the toughest of my life and I reverted to cutting — breaking a solemn vow not to I made to my husband — to try and survive the stress. This spring, I joined a gym. The stresses are all still there; money, work, and postponed dreams. But I’m not cutting. I don’t like going to the gym, and the only thing keeping me going is a deep-seeded self-loathing, but I’m not cutting. And risking a little bit of muscle pull is a hell of a lot safer than risking severing a vein in a moment of distraction while cutting.

While one must be vigilant to avoid falling prey to obsessive exercise, a problem linked to cutting behavior which can be destructive to both health and self-esteem, some have argued that it is the lack of exercise in modern society that is one of the reasons for self-injury becoming more and more common. A person with a fit and maintained body feels alive, and it is far more rare for them to feel the need to seek out other approaches such as cutting.

If the pain that caused a person to cut was in the past, rather than ongoing, the solutions I’ve mentioned above can often heal those wounds due to the self-respect and self-esteem they help bloom. A happy person feels good about who they are and has little motivation to hurt themselves — although there’s still a very good chance that they’ll continue to “hurt” themselves in the process of body modification and ritual for self-improvement… Which is perfectly healthy and usually a sign that the individual is becoming more comfortable with who they are by taking a proactive role in defining their own identity.



INSANE… ERASE ME

Although cutting is something that many wonderful people have gone through, it is not something you want to just let fester and continue. But it’s also not something you should be ashamed of. You can transform the energy that drives you to cut to improve your life, and that is what this article was about, and that is why BME has a cutting gallery.

Under no circumstances should a person ever be made to feel bad or be attacked because of their drive to cut. If a person is cutting, that means that they are trying to solve their problems and trying to open a dialog both internally and externally. The cuts are a signal that the desire and the foundation are there for healing to begin. The last thing we should do if we care about the person’s healing is to destroy that essential survival net.


Shannon Larratt
BME.com

Employment Discrimination: Be Careful What You Sue For [Guest Column]


Employment Discrimination:
Be Careful What You Sue For

By Marisa Kakoulas

On my first day of work at a stereotypical Wall Street law firm, four other lawyers took me for a fancy lunch to welcome me into the fold. All of us in dark suits and pasty white faces politely conversed about acceptable topics, all the while making sure we were using the right fork, until the moment when a man with neon hair, neck tattoos, and multiple facial piercings flashed before the window next to where we sat. The forks dropped. The man outside walked on. But his presence still lingered at our table.

“I don’t understand these freaks with all the tattoos and piercings,” started one at our table, and the discussion spiraled onwards towards burning the modified at the stake. Fortunately for me, my piercings and tattoos at the time were easily covered, otherwise I would’ve gotten singed.

…Or fired.

“A person can be fired because the company doesn’t like your shoes,” explains Robert D. Lipman, who manages the New York employment firm Lipman & Plesur, LLP, and is President of Interactive Employment Training, Inc.. I called Lipman to ask whether a person fired solely for having visible tattoos or piercings has any recourse under United States law. “We get a lot of calls like this,” he said. “People say ‘This is America. We should be able to do what we want.’ But I tell them that once you walk into a private employers workplace, your rights are limited.”

Limited, but not null.

Title VII of the US Civil Rights Act of 1964 says that a private company with more than fifteen employees cannot discriminate on the basis of religion, sex, race, color, or national origin. So company decisions to hire, fire, promote, shell out benefits or the key to the Executive Washroom must not be based on these “protected classifications.” To do so is illegal. Title VII is not the only law that protects Americans from job discrimination. Many state laws have extended protection against discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation, transgenderism, and even obesity. There’s also the federal Americans with Disabilities Act, Equal Pay Act, Age Discrimination in Employment Act, Immigration Reform and Control Act, Pregnancy Discrimination Act, and the National Labor Relations Act.

Despite all these Acts, the curtain falls for those judged on their body modifications, no matter how good the performance. That is, unless you can make a claim under one of these classifications.

RELIGIOUS DISCRIMINATION

Are your tattos spiritually dictated?

While employees generally have more success claiming that dress codes infringe upon religious beliefs, for the tattooed and pierced, success is unlikely.

But isn’t body modification a choice like religion?

“Absolutely, yes. But the Constitution specifically guarantees religious protection,” says California and New York licensed attorney John Thomure, who has represented pro-bono petitioners before the US Supreme Court on constitutional protection claims, as well as having contributed to amicus briefs challenging South Carolina’s ban on tattooing. Heavily tattooed himself, Thomure says:


“Although we might grant great spiritual significance to our own body mods, my sense is a court would cast a very skeptical eye on it as a religious practice. And since outside of perhaps indigenous cultures [...] there is no history or antecedents for the “religion,” it would certainly look as though the creation of the body-mod religion was for the purpose in part of creating legal claims under a freedom of religion argument.”

Case in point: The Church of Body Modification [uscobm.com]. The Church states on its web site that its purpose is “for our modified society to harmoniously return to its spiritual roots that have been forgotten.” It adds that “we are not here to offer spirituality to you so much as we are here because of the spirituality that is already in all of us; often expressed through what we do to our bodies.”

This may not cut it as “a bonafide church.” Lipman mentions a California 9th Circuit Court of Appeals case where a vegan filed a discrimination suit under religious classification. The Court rejected the veganism as a religion claim, holding that vegan ethics do not constitute a religious creed because (among others) it is not a comprehensive belief system that addresses “fundamental and ultimate questions having to do with deep and imponderable matters.” Moreover, it noted that some people were vegan for health and not spiritual reasons.

It is very clear that the Church of Body Modification does not offer an answer to that ultimate question: “Why are we here?” And it does state on its site that many people choose to modify their bodies for non-spiritual reasons. Nevertheless, that did not stop one 27-year old woman from filing suit against Costco claiming that, as a member of the Church of Body Modification, her eyebrow piercing was an essential part of her faith. The case is still pending [questions forwarded to her went unanswered], and while unlikely, if it succeeds it could set major precedent in employment law.

Don’t get your hopes up. As Thomure points out, “Think of Mormons […] their practice of polyamory has not been given protection because of a conflict with a larger public policy.”

Public policy is key here because even if the Church of Body Modification could be deemed a bonafide religion, is it reasonable to ask a company like Costco to potentially lose customers who are put off by visible mods, especially more extreme ones? Jewish yarmulkes, beards, and religious garbs are acceptable. Can we claim full-body lizard scales in the same category? And while performer and PhD candidate Erik “The Lizardman” Sprague is probably smarter than all of us, should Costco be forced to have him ring up bulk items for Brooklyn grandmothers (assuming that’s a dream of Erik’s)?

I say no, unless lizard scale tattoos are allowed on female employees but not male, which brings us to…

SEX DISCRIMINATION

Dude looks like a lady

If an employer’s dress code significantly differentiates between men and women, without being based on social norms, or poses a greater burden on women, then it can be deemed discriminatory. So, for example, a dress code that allows earrings for women but not men could be considered discriminatory.

Imagine a case where a company allows its male employees to sport visible tattoos, but, after reading in the Philadelphia Daily News that tattooed women are sluts, the employer decides that it’s best for public relations that female workers remain pure and unblemished: To that, one can hear a resounding “Sue their ass!”

Keep in mind that the US courts have often held that anti-discrimination laws are not intended to hinder employers who set reasonable appearance standards fitting for their business. In 1998, the 11th Circuit Court of Appeals in Harper v. Blockbuster Entertainment upheld Blockbuster’s dress code that mandated male employees to cut their long hair, but not female employees.

Thus, even if there are different appearance standards for men and women relating to body mods, it’s still not an easy case to make out.

NATIONAL ORIGIN DISCRIMINATION

Is it your tattoo, or the tattoo of your people?

Employers cannot enact a dress code that treats certain employees unfairly because of their national origin unless it would result in undue hardship for the company. This national origin classification covers ancestry, language, accent, and culture, among others. So, for example, a Maori with a moko tattoo could have a claim under this provision as these facial tattoos are based on genealogy and tribal affiliations. Or an East Asian woman could fight to keep in her nose stud at work, claiming the cultural significance of facial adornment, such as in marriage ceremonies.

As a Greek-American, where my ancestors shunned tattooing except to mark the foreheads of criminals, it is improbable that I would fall under the national origin exception. In fact, it is my conservative Greek father who first voiced the claim that I must be crazy for having all my tattoos, which brings me to…

DISABILITY DISCRIMINATION

LOCO!!!

Tattoos as a disability? Is my ink a manifestation of some mental illness? Is it body dysmorphia? Narcissism? Was I not properly toilet trained?

It’s an unsettling argument with possible disturbing consequences.

Thomure agrees. He says that while the idea of body modification as a disability leaves a sour taste in his mouth, he adds that the claim “is not so far fetched.” He tells me to step back and ask “What do people tell you when you ask them ‘Why did you get heavily tattooed?’ Try drawing the real reasons out of people. Most will only answer superficially — ‘they’re pretty,’ ‘I like how I look’ — and hide the real reason.” In speaking with other heavily tattooed people he says that the motivations that are frequently mentioned are:

  1. It’s empowering and liberating — reclaiming of the body.
  2. Manifesting externally or physically strong sexual fetish in tattoos or piercing.
  3. A general sense that one was compelled to get so tattooed to make oneself complete.

It’s that compulsion that could very well be defined as an illness. However, according to Lipman, it’s probably not enough to get you covered under disability protection. Lipman says, “A disability has to impair a major life activity. Does having a tattoo stop you from eating or sleeping?”

No. But other body mods do — self-amputation, for one more extreme example. I’m not suggesting that those who practice body nullification are mentally ill. Hell, “my best friends are [self-amputees],” but it’s not my opinion that counts, but the State’s.

Yet another modified lawyer (yes, there are many of us) and tattooist, Devon, weighed in on the disability issue saying be careful what you sue for when discussing disability protection:


“If I choose to lop off a body part in the name of modification, should I then be entitled to ADA protection? Should I now be able to collect Social Security based on my ‘disability’? To me, the answer to that is a resounding “NO”!

You start to hit governments or corporations in the wallet based on your modifications, and just see how free you are to get modified in the future.”

It’s a strong point. The backlash for filing all these body modification discrimination claims may be the banning of the modifications themselves, as in South Carolina and Oklahoma. Or, even more extreme, involuntary hospitalization.

BRINGING AN ACTION

Still, if you feel strongly that you’ve been wrongly discriminated against for your body mods, you may file a charge with your local Equal Employment Opportunity Commission [EEOC.GOV] office, which may be found online or by calling 1-800-669-4000. An EEOC charge must be filed within 180 days of the date of the disputed conduct.

Outside of the EEOC, a claim for breach of contract can be filed for those who have employment contracts, such as union workers or some executives. According to Lipman, there must be “just cause” to fire someone under an employment contract, unlike “at will” employment — Lipman says that most Americans fall under “at will” employment. He does not believe that a tattoo or piercing constitutes “just cause.”

Lipman also points out that government employees have greater protection than private employees because they not only fall under all those anti-discrimination acts, but they have constitutional protections as well. So, hypothetically, a government employee fired for having tattoos may have a free speech claim. Although I do have a hard time envisioning Condoleeza Rice with a moko testifying on behalf of her boss — the irony of it makes me snicker.

However, employment discrimination is no laughing matter, and legal action should be considered very carefully.

Also ask yourself, is discrimination so bad?

If I was fired from that law firm on my first day, it would have saved me over two years of suffering in an atmosphere that was not right for me. But something good did come out of it: After covering my body mods for a while and proving myself as a competent legal thinker, I eventually revealed that I indeed was “a tattooed and pierced freak.” I was not fired. In fact, just before I came to my own decision to leave the firm, two out of the four lawyers at that first lunch asked if I would let them accompany me when I got my next tattoo. I did and it changed their minds completely.

While it did not change my mind to stop practicing law, I still like to fantasize about opening my own firm to serve the body modification community and discriminate with abandon: The Non-Modified Need Not Apply.


In addition to the people mentioned in this article, I would like to especially thank Rebekah [iam:rebekah] for her invaluable help in case law research, ServMe [iam:ServMe] for his editing prowess, as well as the many other wonderful people of BME who raised important issues in the forums that helped shape this piece. I’d also like to thank Dan [calypsotattoo.com] for making me beautifully less employable.   – Marisa Kakoulas

This article is not intended as legal advice. It is intended for only general information purposes. This article does not create any attorney-client relationship.



Marisa Kakoulas
Marisa Kakoulas is a New York lawyer, writer, and muse of Daniel DiMattia of Calypso Tattoo, living in Liege, Belgium. She works undercover — or just covered up — as a corporate consultant: proof that tattoos and suits are not mutually exclusive. Her book “Tattoo Law”, an overview of US laws affecting the body modification community, is under way. IAM members can visit Marisa at iam:FREE.

Copyright © 2004 Marisa Kakoulas. Online presentation copyright © 2004 BMEzine.com LLC. Requests to republish must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published online April 5th, 2004 by BMEzine.com LLC in Toronto, Ontario, Canada.


William Rafti: Piercing Visionary or Scumbag Con-Artist? [The Publisher’s Ring]



William Rafti:
Piercing Visionary or Scumbag Con-Artist?

“I’m not afraid of making a fool of myself, I’ve done worse.”

– William Rafti

Those of you in the APP know about William Rafti because of his constant baseless attacks on APP members, his cold-calling harassment of those associated with the APP, and his relentless attacks on respected members of the piercing community such as Sky Renfro. Others may have seen his “ebook”, “The Body Piercing Encyclopedia” — which he for a time marketed as the “replacement” for the APP manual — in various online catalogs, through which he portrays himself as one of the leading minds in modern body piercing.

  

The photo William Rafti submitted (him in Unimax’s showroom) when he tried to use the BME personals to spam for “trainees” for his non-existent piercing school

The truth is, William Rafti is at best an unstable asshole with a wavering grip on reality, if you’re to believe the vast majority of the piercing industry. While he’s willing to go on at length about how he’s the most important thing to happen to piercing, even using the references he provided me with, I couldn’t find a single person willing to say nice things about him or even qualify him as an expert. But still, I decided to give him a chance and asked for a copy of his ebook for review — after all, very occasionally an insane asshole does produce something of value.

What I received was emphatically not something of value.

In the mail I received a palm-sized plastic bag with a small unlabelled CD-R, which was wrapped in a low-quality print out informing me that I’d need Microsoft Word to view it. When I inserted the CD there was no installation process or welcome message — upon opening it I discovered that to access the documents, I’d have to copy the contents into “C:\Volume” and load the bits of the book into Word from there.

When I finally got the book loaded, I found a chaotic mess of documents with constantly changing font sizes and colors, strange hyperlinks (sometimes to various Internet sites), and broken layout. It was riddled with spelling errors and grammatical confusion, and there was an abundance of unrelated files — everything from outdated shareware applications to “jokes” to chat logs of Rafti slandering various well known body modification figures. I was rather shocked at the un-professionalism of it, but still, I tried to give it the benefit of the doubt.



A strange part of the ebook called “Shop Wench”, which numerous readers have expressed disgust at (and others have been forced to say “sad but true” to).



An excerpt from the “Pain Management” section, which includes text apparently stolen from drbiba.com.



An odd section of text, seemingly unrelated to his book — and stolen from an article published in the far-right online magazine WorldNetDaily in October of 2002.



The credits and thank you part, where Rafti thanks for their help numerous people who have no idea who he is and that he’s never met.

The feeling that you get when reading the “book” is that Rafti just downloaded every bit of body piercing related information online, and then tried to patch it together into a single project under his own name. Not only do the fonts change from “pasting to pasting”, but the style of writing changes as well, implying strongly that large portions of this book are plagiarized. In addition, I noticed that in some sections he would flip between referring to tools by their name (ie. 8mm Dermal Punch) and some sort of product code (ie. #DERM-8MM). I can think of no explanation for this other than cutting and pasting from a manufacturer’s catalog and attempting to disguise it as his own work.

And then I read something familiar.

William Rafti was stealing material from the old BME glossary, making minor changes to it, erasing my name, and inserting his own as the author instead!

I don’t generally mind when people use BME as a basis for their own research — that’s what it’s there for. But what I do mind is when people actually claim that they wrote it. If you want to use someone else’s material, cite it properly! It’s one thing when someone plagiarizes on a school project… but for Rafti to steal BME’s material and try and criminally sell it under his own name takes some real gall.

In the tables below, entries from the outdated BME glossary (Rafti did not have access to the new files in the still fledgling BME encyclopedia project at the time) are shown on the left. Entries taken from Rafti’s ebook are shown on the right — please note that in both cases I’ve not always included the entire entry for the purposes of clarity.

I have highlighted direct plagiarism in yellow, and I have highlighted indirect plagiarism (where synonyms and alternate phrases have been inserted) with pink. These are only a small number of the examples that I found — my analysis suggests that the bulk of the ebook is plagiarized from various sources (not just BME). I even found some examples where he copied my typos!

Fistula
 
A healing tunnel of skin. When a piercing is performed, a crescent hole is carved, leaving a raw length of flesh filled with jewelry. As the piercing heals, new skin is grows. This “tube” is initially fragile and tugging violently on the jewelry will tear it.
Flesh Tube

A healed tunnel of flesh.
When a piercing is performed, a crescent hole is carved, leaving a raw length of flesh filled with jewelry. As the piercing heals, new skin is grown. This ‘tube’ is initially fragile and rotating the jewelry without lubrication can tear it.

 
Changing the title and a couple words doesn’t make a person an author… It makes them a thief (and what’s with substituting “grows” for “grown”?).

Blowout

When a piercing is stretched too quickly (a rate which is different for everyone), the skin tunnel can be forced out the back of the piercing by the pressure. The result is an unsightly “lip” around the edge. If stretching continues, this lip can grow dramatically.

Downsizing the piercing (ie. putting in smaller jewelry) so that the deformed tissue can reabsorb into the body.

 
Blowout

When a piercing is stretched too quickly (a rate which is different for everyone), the jewelry tunnel can be forced out the back of the piercing by pressure resulting in an unsightly “lip” around the edge. The best solution is to put smaller jewelry in the piercing so that the deformed tissue can go back into proper position.

Again, it’s clearly the same text, with only the most minor of editing to disguise the theft.

Flexible Bar Piercing

Another method of doing surface piercings is to use flexible jewelry. The theory is that because the jewelry flexes and moves freely with the body, it will cause minimal irritation. This is true in part, but there will still be more pressure on the exits than with surface bars. Note also that not all flexible jewelry is created equal. The two most common materials are probably nylon (fishing line) and tygon (a kind of plastic tubing). Tygon is drastically more flexible.

 
Flexible Bar

A kind of barbell that has a flexible shaft that is made out of plastic. The two most common materials are nylon (fishing line) and Tygon (a kind of plastic tubing). Tygon is much more flexible than Nylon. The flexibility of the plastic reduces pressure that the skin places on a new piercing, but there is still more pressure on the exits than with a properly fitting surface to surface bar.

One of the things that Rafti doesn’t seem to clue in on is that BME “wrote the book” on many of these subjects and still remains the only source for information on them. Because of that, BME often uses unique terminology, and when I see someone else using it, there is really only one possible source! Here he’s “cleverly” changed the focus of the entry from the procedure to the jewelry (and been more sneaky in re-odering the text), but it’s still the same entry, and no one is fooled when they see both I think.

Emla Cream

It should be noted that while EMLA cream is over-the-counter in Canada, it is a prescription-only substance in most countries, including the US. In addition, it’s application may be illegal for piercers or tattooists to do.

 
Emla Cream

EMLA cream is over-the-counter in Canada, but it is a prescription-only substance in most other countries, including the US. It’s application may be illegal for piercers or tattooists to do.

Come on. It’s not like it’s hard to write entries on these subjects. Why steal?

Epinephrine

Epinephrine is commonly combined with injectible anesthetics due to its vascular constrictive properties. That is, it causes blood vessels to shrink closed. This means first that the anesthetic will last longer (since it is not carried away in the blood), and second, the procedure will bleed less.

It should be noted that because of its vasoconstrictive properties should be avoided in extremities and digits since the small blood vessels can be permanently collapsed. It should be probably also be avoided by those with heart conditions — injecting 5cc’s of Xylocaine with Epinephrine into your balls will make you feel like you’ve just run around the block.

 
Epinephrine

Epinephrine is commonly combined with injectable anesthetics due to its vascular constrictive properties. That is, it causes blood vessels to shrink closed. This means first that the anesthetic will last longer (since it is not carried away in the blood), and second, the procedure will bleed less.

It should be noted that because of its vasoconstrictive properties should be avoided in extremities and digits since the small blood vessels can be permanently collapsed. It should probably also be avoided by those with heart conditions.

Wow. A whole entry copied word for word… Minus the last sentence, which I guess Rafti thought wouldn’t be right for his readers — although Rafti makes the disturbing and unfounded claim in his ebook that 60% of piercers become piercers due to deviant sexuality including sadism, masochism, and voyeurism.

Xylocaine

Xylocaine (lidocaine) is one of the common kinds of anesthetic. In it’s most popular form, it is a liquid injectable anesthetic, usually in a 2% or 1% strength solution. It is often combined with epinephrine.

It should be noted that xylocaine is, in most countries, by prescription only and may only be administered legally by doctors. Clients should be wary of any piercing studio that offers it in these countries.

 
Xylocaine

Xylocaine Also known as Lidocaine; is one of the common kinds of anesthetic. In it’s most popular form, it is a liquid injectable anesthetic, usually in a 2% or 1% strength solution. It is often combined with epinephrine. Lidocaine toxicity can occur when a very large amount of Lidocaine is injected. A common procedure requiring vast amounts of Lidocaine is Super-Wet Technique Liposuction. It should be noted that Xylocaine is, in most countries, by prescription only and may only be administered legally by doctors.

What’s funny about this particular entry is what he didn’t steal from me, he stole from rhinoplasty4you.com. Note the two sentences starting Rafti’s second paragrah. Now note this text from the plastic surgery site:

“Lidocaine toxicity is something that can occur with way too many injections of Lidocaine. A common procedure requiring vast amounts of Lidocaine is Tumescent and Super-Wet Technique Liposuction.”

Sound familiar? It really gets me wondering whether Rafti wrote any of the text in this ebook.

Marcaine

Marcaine, while usually not as “powerful” as Xylocaine, does last longer. It is often given to patients coming out of surgery to ease recovery.

Marcaine has a higher LD50 than Xylocaine, and is not usually appropriate for body modification procedures.

 
Marcaine

Marcaine also known as Bupivacaine Not as “powerful” as Xylocaine but lasts longer. It is often given to patients coming out of surgery to ease recovery. Marcaine has a higher LD50 than Xylocaine, and is not usually appropriate for body modification procedures.

Does this guy really have so little knowledge on anesthetics that he has to rip all this off?

Soap

cleansing agent
Many people choose to clean their piercings with an antibacterial soap (such as Dial), but this is widely regarded as unnecessary. Regular soaps work just as well. Saltwater is often preferred, and won’t irritate or dry the piercing as will many soaps.

 
Hand Soap

For cleaning piercings
Many people choose to clean their piercings with an anti bacterial soap (such as Dial), but this is widely regarded as unnecessary. Regular soaps work just as well. Salt Water is often preferred, and won’t irritate or dry the piercing as will many soaps.

Maybe he thinks changing the heading makes him the author of the definition text? Let’s see now, “he” says that salt water is “preferred”… I wonder what he has to say about that subject?

Salt Soaks

Soaking an angry or new piercing in warm saltwater is one of the best things you can do for it. Many use saltwater as their only cleanser. Hot, it’s a natural astringent and can be helpful in drawing out infection and pus.

Most piercers prefer non-iodized sea salt; although some people have found that normal table salt can be an effective substitute. Conversely, most agree that epsom salts should not be used.

The most common mix is a quarter teaspoon of salt per 8oz of water. The solution should taste as salty as your tears.

 
Salt Water

Soaking a new piercing in warm salt Water is one of the best things you can do for it. Many use salt water as their only cleanser. Warm Water is a natural antiseptic and astringent helpful in loosening dried lymph, blood etc.

Most use non-iodized salt; but normal iodized table salt is also effective.

Epsom salts are not nearly as suitable for soaking new piercings and should not be used.

Saline solution or a salt Water soak can be used; a quarter teaspoon salt to 8 Oz. Water, 8 Oz is equal to one cup, the solution should be no more salty than your tears.

I found this entry copied at least five times in difference places, including his collection of recommended legal forms (ie. aftercare). I have to admit that on top of everything else, I find the bizarre capitalization (Water is a proper noun in Rafti-land I guess) rather amusing and perplexing.

Cyanoacrylate

Superglue (cyanoacrylate) is an incredibly powerful and versitile glue capable of acting as a suture replacement, both for play and for medical care. Medically approved superglue is available as Dermabond, but differences between it and over-the-counter superglue are relatively minor.

Using glue as a suture alternative, when properly applied, results in dramatically less scarring than sutures (stitches). Superglue was used by soldiers in Vietnam to treat small wounds, and is currently used by many medical and pseudomedical practioners such as midwives who use it as an alternative treatment for vaginal tears.

In addition, some men enjoy using glues for infibulation bypushing the genitals up and wrapping them in pubic and scrotal skin, and then gluing the whole thing together. This generally lasts a few days at most, and relatively painless separation is possible before that with care… assuming the person shaved fully!

 
Cyanoacrylate

Cyanoacrylate (Superglue) is a powerful glue that usually holds skin together for less than a day. Medically approved superglue is available as Dermabond, but the differences between it and superglue are relatively minor. Cyanoacrylate is used by many personal care givers to treat small wounds and tears of the skin surface such as vaginal rips caused from child birth.

Using glue as a suture alternative; when properly applied Cyanoacrylate results in less scarring than suturing a wound closed. Some men use glue to glue their scrotal sack over the penis making it impossible to get an erection until the glue releases. Relatively painless separation is possible before the glue naturally gives way, if the person was fully shaved before the gluing slowly pulling the skin apart may be possible.

At least in the epinephrine entry he took out the part about ball torture… Here for some reason he left in my commentary on that subject, which has nothing to do with piercing.

Gauge

The Browne&Sharpe gauge system is used in North America to denote the diameter of the wire used to make a specific piece of body jewelry. The larger the gauge, the smaller the diameter.

 
Gauge

American gauge (also known as Browne&Sharpe gauge) system is used in North America to denote the diameter of the wire used to make a specific piece of body jewelry. The larger the gauge, the thinner the wire.

Ooh, what a change. This is such a simple entry, that you’d think he could at least come up with his own text for this one! I’d expect them to be similar, but the same sentences? Unlikely.

Skin

An interesting side note here is that if you wash your hands, you actually end up with more bacteria on the surface of your hands than before you washed. This is because by sluffing off the dead cells, you expose the critters growing inside you — however, these bacteria are largely harmless to you (but not neccessarily to others).

 
Washing Hands

If you wash your hands, you actually end up with more bacteria on the surface of your hands than before you washed. This is because by removing some of the dead cells you expose more of the bacteria that is growing inside the surface of your skin, luckily these bacteria are largely harmless to you, but are much more likely to be harmful to others, so wearing gloves is vital no matter how clean you think your hands are.

See, now this is worrying. These are really basic subjects. Why is someone who claims endlessly to be an “expert” unable to write their own entries on these simple issues? Just think — this guy is trying to con people into letting him train them.

Nitrile

latex-free material often used in gloves
Many piercers are switching over to nitril gloves. Due to their latex-free nature, they are less problematic for people with (the relatively common) latex allergies. In addition, tears and other defects are easier to notice in nitrile gloves.

 
Nitrile, and
Glove, Acceptable Quality Level

Also known as “Nitril”. An alternative synthetic rubber like material that is latex-free and does not cause contact sensitivity as latex can. In addition, tears and other defects are easier to notice in Nitrile gloves. This is currently the preferred choice for most piercers.

Due to their latex-free nature, they are less problematic for people with (the relatively common) latex allergies. In addition, tears and other defects are easier to notice in Nitrile gloves.

This is actually one BME entry converted into two Rafti entries — getting his money’s worth I guess (oh wait, the BME glossary is free). In the first one, he’s done some rewriting, but I guess he forgot about the second one and just left it as a pure word for word copy.

Again, this is only a fraction of the plagiarism I discovered from BME and other sources in Rafti’s ebook. The rest are reserved for the lawyers should it come to that.

OK… So do I sue this thief into the stone age? I’m a pretty laid back guy, so I decided to do an interview with him about his book and see what he had to say — I was placing bets with myself on whether Rafti would come clean, “be a man”, and apologize, or whether he’d try and keep the lie going as long as possible.

BME: Large parts of the document are directly based on and plagiarized from my own site and from other sites. Why have you stolen other people’s work and presented it uncited and as your own? Did you really believe no one would notice?

RAFTI:All mankind is of one author, and is one volume” – John Donne

BME: No, I’m serious. Why did you steal my articles and say you wrote them?

RAFTI: As far as anything that I am aware of that I used from others I had permission.

BME: No, you did not have permission. Why did you steal my articles?

RAFTI: With over six billion people in the world thinking millions of thoughts each there is probably no thought that you can think that hasn’t been thought before by someone else. If you mean to imply my thoughts and words are not my own then we are all guilty by circumstance of the same thing.

BME: Look, you copied word for word. Don’t try and pretend it was just a coincidence. Did you really think I wouldn’t notice?

RAFTI: No one else had a problem like this.

BME: They probably don’t know you stole their material. Maybe I should let them know? Again — why did you think you could steal my material and get away with it?

RAFTI: Nothing in my book was taken from you. Everything I know to be true tells me the opposite of what you presume.

BME: You stole entries from the glossary for example.

RAFTI: I went through every entry in your glossary with the intent of purging anything that I thought might be considered “stolen” from you. My entries were very different than what you had.

BME: Let me be clear here — I am going to publish information on your theft and it’s very clear and obvious. I’m trying to give you a chance here to come clean.

RAFTI: Stop lying. I can find no grounds for these accusations. This is war, [and] I’m making a list of names. The people caught on the losing side will face the obligatory mob reaction, same old story.

So it’s clear that Rafti is either too much of a scumbag to admit his theft, or so insane and unprofessional that he’s totally unaware of it. Either way, it was clear that this line of questions wasn’t going to get anywhere. On his website and in his book, Rafti claims to be the world’s leading expert on body piercing and states that he’s endorsed by many respected industry figures — so let’s ask him about some of those people.

BME: You’ve said on numerous occasions that industry respected individuals are endorsing your book, yet your book appears to be somewhat misleading as to who is actually supporting you — you’ve even implied that I supported it, before I’d even seen a copy! Who are your allies on this project, and who is endorsing it?

RAFTI: I have a list of people who said positive things about my book on my web site.

BME: Those are anonymous names — it’s not as if “branded bitch”, “Brandy H. (IL)”, or “name withheld at request” are people who are recognized, let alone confirmable. Seriously, tell me some people I call and check with.

RAFTI: The people who I have the most respect for in the industry support what I’m doing, including Kim Morin of Prick Magazine (I told her a thing or two she said was worth exploring), and Creeper of Starborn Tattoo in Las Vegas (I went from studio to studio in Las Vegas and could not find anyone who had his experience and knowledge).

There is also Wes of Unimax who is my biggest supporter. John Seaton of the Suffolk Country Department of Health personally told me he’d gladly endorse me. He told me that he had been waiting twenty years for something like this to happen.

David Klaus Pavin Jr (aka Kivaka) — 13 years experience — will bring much useful information to the Rafti Institute school. [And] Jim Ward is a dear friend of mine.

BME: So Jim got you into piercing?

RAFTI: He was my first contact in the world of piercing. I met him in David M.’s studio after Jim invited me to attend a piercing clinic he was offering, where they were using Betadine to sterilize and used no gloves. It turned out to be a frightening experience — I was the only heterosexual there and felt obliged to tell them so. Lots of leathermen went “oooooooh” in unison when they saw me lie down.

Jim invited me to the opening party of Gauntlet, where I also met Elayne [Angel] who personally told me and the whole room that I was “Gauntlet’s second customer, yay!

OK, time to make some phone calls and emails and see if these stories check out. “Dear friend” of Jim Ward is a pretty big claim, so let’s talk to Jim and Elayne first.

BME: I’m doing an interview with William Rafti, and he’s using you as a reference. Would you say it’s accurate for him to describe you as a “dear friend”?

WARD: If he were a “dear friend” I’d think I’d remember him. The only thing I remember about this guy is that he [recently] sent me a couple of emails asking questions about Doug [Malloy].

BME: He says you guys met at David Menkes and that you’d invited him to the Gauntlet opening and early piercing seminars — and that you all made a big fuss out of him being straight.

ANGEL: He may have been at the NY opening. Probably close to hundreds of people were there…

WARD: I don’t recall inviting him to Gauntlet’s seminars, and, frankly I can’t imagine anyone caring whether he was gay or not.

BME: He also said that you weren’t using gloves or properly sterilizing things.

WARD: There was a period in Gauntlet’s early years when we didn’t use gloves, but I always took care to make sure the implements were sterilized.

ANGEL: While things have dramatically improved since those days (1991 or so), we were pretty state-of-the-art at that time. Gauntlet has definitely used gloves since before my time there (in the 80s).

BME: I assume you know that he also personally thanks Richard Simonton (although he misspells it) in his book…

WARD: I kind of figured this guy for a phony, and not all that in tune with what’s going on. If memory serves me correctly, he initially contacted me saying he wanted to know more about Doug and his connection to the organ world.

As you probably already know Doug Malloy was not his real name. It was the name Richard Simonton used for his piercing exploits. Rafti couldn’t understand why I persist in calling him Doug Malloy when that wasn’t his real name. I thought that was pretty clueless and wrote back that I didn’t think he’d call Mark Twain “Samuel Clemens” in the context of his writing, so why would I call Doug “Richard” in the context of piercing? Don’t know if he got it, but I haven’t heard from him since.

No surprises there. Let’s check with Wes at Unimax.

BME: Were you aware that Rafti stole large parts of his book?

UNIMAX: I’m not even sure that he’s aware of that.

BME: Rafti lists you as his primary reference and biggest supporter, and he quotes you as saying that anyone who doesn’t buy his book has no interest in piercing.

UNIMAX: Well, I changed that. I took that off of my site when I saw that it was a little overbearing. That was just advertising.

BME: Am I correct in assuming your relationship with him is basically the same as you’d have with any of the authors who’s books you sell?

UNIMAX: Yes, but when he showed me the book I was very impressed with the amount of material he compiled.

BME: Well, I think it’s important to note that he didn’t actually write it. I mean, I can’t just go buy a tattoo magazine, scan the photos, and make my own magazine.

UNIMAX: No, definitely not!

BME: Anyway, Rafti says you’re his biggest supporter. Is that accurate?

UNIMAX: I’ve been a supporter of his efforts. I support anybody’s efforts! But I don’t stand behind his work. I’m not saying that. I can’t vouch for his work. I didn’t even read his whole book, it’s impossible to read.

BME: What do you think of Rafti? I can’t tell if he’s crazy or lying.

UNIMAX: He’s a little strange… you know… he’s a strange kind of person. [laughs] Just to refresh. I support anybody’s efforts if they’re doing it legitimately. That was my support of him and it’s as far as it goes. I don’t support anybody who’s doing anything illegal. I never have.

True to his word, as soon as Unimax found out about Rafti’s fraud, they removed his book from their catalogs (Mario from WoodBodyJewelry did the same after finding out about Rafti’s scam). Maybe we’ll have more luck checking with Prick Magazine. Or is that wishful thinking?

BME: I’m trying to get in touch with Kim Morin of Prick Magazine.

PRICK: She hasn’t worked for me for quite a while now.

BME: William Rafti is using her as a reference. Do you know him?

PRICK: William Rafti? Naw, I can’t say that I do, unless he goes by “Billy” and he’s a fat bald guy.

BME: Well, he is kind of fat, but he has hair. How do I get in touch with Kim?

PRICK: Kim didn’t exactly leave on the best of terms… I can’t speak for either one of them. If you could pass it along that they should stop using [Prick] as a reference, I would really appreciate it. But Kim is a good piercer, and if he worked for her…

BME: Oh, he’s never been a piercer.

PRICK: [laughs] Well, what’s he trying to pitch then?

BME: He’s got this thing called the Rafti Institute which wants to offer piercing training courses, and he’s got a plagiarized book about piercing that he tells people he wrote.

PRICK: Weird… I think I remember a guy wanting to get involved with us, starting to talk about publishing a book. But he was a little too far out there for me to deal with.

BME: Yeah, that would be Rafti.

PRICK: Just tell him to cease-and-desist mentioning Prick Magazine next time you talk to him.

No surprises there — although I have to admit that I find it surprising that someone would give out references that aren’t going to say nice things! I tried to track down Kim Morin to hear if she had anything to add, but unfortunately had no luck in doing so.

Next I decided to see if I could find “Kivaka”, who Rafti had said was going to be one of his instructors at the school — touting his 13 years of experience (which I would later find out from Kivaka’s website was an inflated claim). Kivaka works at Tattoo City in Lockport, IL and we had a brief chat about Rafti’s statements — Kivaka had just woken up and seemed a little dazed, but I got the impression he was a nice soft-spoke guy who’d simply been tricked by Rafti’s emails.

BME: William Rafti is listing you as one of his primary references, so I wanted to ask you a little more about that.

KIVAKA: Oh, right on.

BME: How would you characterize his skills as a piercer, and as someone qualified to lead the piercing world forward?

KIVAKA: Well, I’m pretty sure he’s not a piercer…

BME: Have you ever even met Rafti?

KIVAKA: No, I’ve never met him… No… We just corresponded a little across the Internet.

Big surprise… ha.

Next I called Starborn Tattoos in Las Vegas, a shop that Rafti said was the only studio in Las Vegas that was good enough to get an inspection certificate from him. After a bit of phone tag I managed to get in touch with Creeper, an experienced — albeit retired — piercing artist from “the old days”.

BME: William Rafti said you’d act as a reference for him.

CREEPER: Yeah, I know him…

BME: Would you say he’s qualified as one of the best piercing instructors?

CREEPER: Well, no… I was taught by the best years ago. The way all these piercers are nowadays is why I’m not in the business any more.

BME: You don’t pierce any more?

CREEPER: No. The way piercers are taught nowadays I just don’t agree with it. My piercers have to apprentice for a year before I even let them pierce.

BME: You know that Rafti’s school is just a $15 certificate, right?

CREEPER: I didn’t know that… So he’s a scam…


Sample “scam” certificates avaiable from Rafti, available without inspection. BME: You’ve met Rafti in person?

CREEPER: Yeah, he came in here and looked around. But there wasn’t a piercer here at the time when he came in.

BME: There was no piercer working?

CREEPER: Nope.

BME: And I guess you can’t really vouch for Rafti’s skills or knowledge?

CREEPER: No.

BME: Has he asked you to instruct at his school?

CREEPER: He asked me something about it, but I said “no way”. I’m just not interested in the piercing thing any more. It’s gone way too wild for me! I pierced for ten years and apprenticed a lot of piercers. I don’t even do it any more. I just tattoo now.

Well, that’s the end of Rafti’s industry references.

Getting in touch with John Seaton of the Suffolk County Health Department was extremely difficult — I called for days, every few hours, and no one was able to ever find him (even Rafti had warned me that he was extremely busy). On my last day of research, when I was ready to write off Seaton as unreachable, he answered and I was able to ask him about Rafti’s credentials.

BME: Do you know William Rafti?

SEATON: I have a disc [from him]; he gave me a disc but I haven’t looked at it yet.

BME: He told me you would vouch for him as a piercing instructor…

SEATON: [laughing]

BME: …and that you’d been waiting 20 years for something like this to happen?

SEATON: [laughing hysterically] …You know, I hate to tell you: the guy came in, he showed a bill of goods, and I looked at him and it just sounded too fishy. You know when something appears to be too good to be true?

BME: He says you trained him and endorse him as qualified?

SEATON: [laughs] He may have been through my certification course and earned a certificate.

BME: What does that course involve?

SEATON: Knowledge of bloodborne pathogens. I teach a little course — a couple hours.

BME: So it’s not something that qualifies someone as a piercer; it just covers the basics of contamination control and so on?

SEATON: Yes — that’s all we can certify. As to skill as a piercer, the law doesn’t address that.

I’m sure no one is shocked at this point, but Rafti’s claims to be endorsed by the Suffolk County Board of Health as a piercer let alone an instructor are stretching the truth pretty thin. He simply took the afternoon bloodborne pathogens course offered by the county to anyone who wants to take it.

So what of Rafti’s lofty credentials? Perhaps he’d at least tell me where his degree was issued — after all, he was claiming not only to be a dude writing a book, but also a scientific researcher (he made the preposterous claim that soaking a piece of body jewelry in brine solution could detect how well it would fare in the body — anyone with even basic knowledge of implant standards as they apply to metallurgy and biology knows the notion is foolish).

BME: You claim to be an expert in this field — what is your actual experience that backs that up?

RAFTI: Thanks for implying that I’m an expert, you can also call me handsome if you want. I claim to be what I already said.

BME: I didn’t imply that you’re an expert, and you didn’t answer my question. Anyway, have you done other research-oriented writing that prepared you for this book?

RAFTI: I’ve written for other publications that would not like being associated with piercing or tattooing in any way, shape, or form so I will not mention them. I have a wall full of credentials — I have credentials for all kinds of things. My mentor, who’s name I am not going to mention, was an international attorney.

I studied anatomy — but don’t quiz me on it. I took a first aid course but my certification expired, and I was certified to run an air compressor.

BME: Ah, so you’re “qualified”, but it’s a secret. I see. In your book you say that you are a piercer and a tattoo artist. Who trained you and where have you worked?

RAFTI: I worked “underground”. The people who I’ve pierced came to me because they thought I would do a good job, distrusted the local studio, and gave me lots of understanding when things occasionally didn’t go as hoped.

I was strongly encouraged to go into piercing professionally — one of the studios that was going to hire me (no apprenticeship) instructed me to answer the phone by saying “Hello asshole, this is asshole speaking, what do you want?

I will be doing a few tattoos within the next year on people who don’t care if it comes out right. [Editor’s note: That is not a typo — he actually said this!]

BME: Um… Ok. Sounds like you have high standards. So how many piercings have you actually done?

RAFTI: I’ve done about seventy to seventy-five actual piercings on living people and currently have no plans to do any more.

BME: So what makes you qualified to design and run a piercing school, let alone have the egomania to call it “the most advanced piercing course” available?

RAFTI: I’ve done at least seventy piercings, and I wrote my ebook.

BME: Whether you wrote that ebook or not is for the courts to decide. Anyway, have you ever even seen or attended any of the other courses available?

RAFTI: I have not received piercing certificates from any place other than myself, and that was a conscious decision based on my personal beliefs. I do have a proficiency test of my own creation but it is proprietary.

BME: How many students have taken your course?

RAFTI: None.

BME: Sounds successful… so basically, you can’t tell me anything about your imaginary school (or your credentials to run it), other than it’s the best, but the proof is top secret?

RAFTI: I will divulge the collagen aspect of my “most advanced piercing course”. What I am working with is so new that it doesn’t really have a name — I call it a “Matrix Resistance Simulator”. The trick to simulating mucosa surface lies in growing a kombuka hongo into a proprietary substrate matrix under a steady temperature. By using different frequencies of temperature change various densities can be achieved.

The advantage of my Matrix Resistance Simulator is that although it is very much like skin it is instantly self healing — unfortunately it can dry out to a scab-like crust long before it gets pierced to pieces, [so] it is best to keep it covered with saran wrap between uses. My program involves practicing the techniques in sets like a weightlifter does — can you do it ten times in a row without making a mistake? Can you perform a random series of piercings? I don’t want to see anyone piercing a person until they find their inner grace. It’s best that if a student can’t develop the eye-hand coordination that they fail.

BME: Well that’s about the goofiest training idea I’ve ever heard. It doesn’t make any sense at all — and there’s no such thing as “kombuka hongo”, so you may want to check with your alien advisors on that.

Do you even have any piercings?

RAFTI: That’s a rude question. I have one piercing, an 8ga frenum. I did pierce my ear once with a sewing needle, and with a thumb tack, and also with a staple. I also used an ear piercing gun.

Would you want a brain surgeon who’s never undergone surgery on his own brain to operate on you?

BME: You’re comparing apples and oranges — that analogy doesn’t make sense. A better question would be “would you get a massage from a masseuse that’s never had a massage” or “would you go to a restaurant where the chef has never tasted food?

RAFTI: Thanks for contributing your own false analogy.

BME: Thanks for avoiding the question. Let’s move on. Ignoring the issues of your total incompetence in running it, if you have plans to run a legitimate piercing school, why do you sell “professional piercer, certified by the William Rafti Institute” certificates to anyone with $15?

RAFTI: I am also willing to make custom certificates for shops that offer their own training — the shop gets their name on their own certificate!

BME: But doesn’t that kind of invalidate the whole legitimacy of your potential school?

RAFTI: I believe that most of the piercers out there are qualified whether they have official certification or not. I believe piercing certificates are modern day talismans — they tend to bring on a desired calming effect that leads to better results. I believe that it is part of our tribal instinct to require talismans, as they enrich and empower us.

BME: Um… OK… You have to understand that it’s getting harder and harder not to laugh at your every response… So why have a school at all then if piercers are already mostly qualified, and all it takes to make them better is hanging up the magic “talisman” certificate you offer? Do the students even need you then?

RAFTI: When the students are ready the teacher will appear, or when the teacher is ready the students will appear — either way works for me.

BME: Now I understand, sensei. “If you build it, they will come.

  
Important Update
DECEMBER 9, 2003 One of the odd thing about Rafti’s piercing responses was that he seemed to alternate between “insane buffoon” and “experienced piercer” mode. Some of the responses were dead on what I’d expect from a piercer, but others were nonsensical.

After this article was published, I started getting contacted by piercers who informed me that in the roughtly 48-hour period between me giving Rafti the questions and him replying, that they had been contacted by him about the questions — and that their answers appeared in this interview as his!

Now, I want to be very clear on one thing: I don’t think Rafti is an idiot. In fact, I think if you can ignore his overwhelming and eclipsing mental — and ethical — problems, he’s a lot sharper than many would give him credit for. He just happens to be crazy, and not in a good way. When I asked Rafti a question set that I ask of people who ask to become part of BME’s QOD staff he did far better than I expected he would — no better than the average piercer, and with some deranged rants thrown in, but better than I expected:

BME:I have a 6 ga Prince Albert. I was interested in getting it changed to an apadravya, but both the piercers at the studio I go to say that isn’t possible — can you think of any reason why that would be?

RAFTI: It’s possible that the studio is not comfortable using a 6 ga needle. Some studios prefer to go no thicker than 8 ga. You should give them a call or stop by the studio and ask them your question. Try to establish better communications with these piercers, you might learn a lot.

Another possibility is that your PA was pierced too close (shallow) to the tip of the penis, making proper placement of a apadravya impossible. A PA is normally placed about 5/8” to 3/4” back from head. Sometimes a studio may hesitate to tell you that you had your PA pierced too shallow out of fear that they might be insulting another piercer’s work. You might want to consider asking your piercer if it would be a better idea to do the apadravya behind the PA.

BME: Good answer, although I don’t think I’ve ever heard of a piercer trying to avoid saying something bad about another’s work.

Next question: “I have my nipples pierced right now (healed) and I wanted to get a second set. I wanted to get the second barbell nice and deep, so the old one pierces the full width of the nipple tip, and the new one pierces the full width of the areola. Would that work?

RAFTI: I find the “pierces the full width of the nipple tip” part of the statement confuses me, but I think I understand the question. It could work, but only if your nipples are large enough. You don’t state whether both piercings are going to be aligned the same (horizontal or vertical). You are more likely to have enough room if the second piercing is done at opposing angles to your existing piercing, this is especially true if you prefer to wear barbells.

BME: Actually, this is a horrible idea — when you pierce a nipple this deep, you risk damaging and blocking milk ducts. In this commonly occuring problem, an infection can be trapped inside the breast (mastitis) and even lead to mastectomy. You really shouldn’t be recommending this depth of piercing to people.

Next question: “My piercer told me there’s aluminum in the jewelry he’s selling (along with titanium). I heard that aluminum exposure can lead to Alzheimer’s Disease… Should I use different jewelry then? Isn’t that a needless risk?

RAFTI: I have personally tested a number of batches of titanium barbells, including anodized titanium and from my findings believe that titanium is at least equal to 316LVM for inertness.

BME: Well, the medical industry (and the piercing industry) has known for a long time that titanium is far superior to stainless steel for implantation use.

RAFTI: Here is an eye opener, there is a range of acceptable proportions for each alloy, and each batch of metal does not necessarily have the exact same properties as every other made by the “same” recipe. I could teach a seminar on this, it’s got interesting implications for all of us.

BME: Actually, metals made and certified for implant use are manufactured with very rigorous adherence to quality and there are not notable variations between batches.

Next question: “I heard recently that tools can’t be guaranteed sterilized if they’re in a pouch, but everyone says that I should be sure to watch them open the pouch in front of me so I know the tool is just for me… Who’s right?

RAFTI: Neither, the best way to tell is to look at the sterilization indicator mark on the pouch. Tell the piercer you are a naturally “paranoid” person who doesn’t want to have nightmares weeks from now, and refer to your “phobia” of dirty needles. This will gain the sympathy of any piercer that I’d trust.

Then tell them to show you the mark on an unused pouch (the pouch will be labeled as to what kind of change to expect), and then [do] a visual examination of the sterilization mark on the sterile pouch that will be used in your procedure. If you do not see a distinct difference in color then you should be very concerned that sterilization is not what it should be.

BME: Well, that’s not true at all — those “sterilization marks” (they’re actually heat and pressure indicators) on the pouches are not reliable indicators of sterility.

Next question: “How often does the water in an autoclave need to be changed?

RAFTI: It depends on the autoclave. If you are using a Prestige autoclave try not to leave water in it overnight. With many other kinds of self heating autoclaves it’s more important to keep the autoclave properly filled with water than to change it, as this prevents corrosion on the coils.

BME: Not changing the water in an autoclave is extremely dangerous! The endotoxins that build up in the water resevoir survive the sterilization cycle and can contaminate the tools and jewelry.

Next question: “I tend to get really woozy even watching a piercing. I want to get my rook pierced, but I don’t really want to pass out… What can I do to keep this from happening?

RAFTI: Make sure to eat a meal an hour or so before getting pierced, eat a candy bar, or some sweet cookies (Oreos seem to be a blood bank favorite). Glucose tablets are also helpful for a lot of people, and are easily portable.

There is also a high glucose energy soda available that I saw in the supermarket — it cost $7.50 (US) for a one liter bottle. You might also want to look for this kind of thing in health and nutrition stores. A warning for vegetarians and vegans: glucose is blood sugar.

BME: Are you insane? While the common expression “blood sugar” does refer to glucose levels, glucose is not distilled from blood!

Glucose being made of blood because of the expression “blood sugar”… Classic!

Anyway, not that I think being able to answer these questions decently justifies his glaring theft and deception.

Talking to William Rafti turned out to be one of the biggest wastes of time for me in 2003. That said, while his ravings may seem like a combination of funny, pathetic, and ignorant, there’s actually a danger in lunatics like Rafti being around, especially when they persist in trying to create schools with false and stolen credentials. I realize that the average BME reader can see through him in a second, but not all clients — let alone potential piercers — are that well informed.

It’s often difficult for people to find an apprenticeship, and many people will jump at the opportunity to take part in a sham school like Rafti’s — after all, if you don’t know that it’s stolen, and you’re not familiar with computers, his book could give one the false impression that he is a leading author on the subject (rather than simply identifying him as a nut and a petty thief).

Rafti is a very sad case, because it’s pretty clear after speaking with him that he’s not particularly lucid, and really doesn’t have much of a grasp on reality — there really is a possibility that he genuinely believes that he wrote this book, and that his references check out, and that he has a lofty (albeit top-secret) set of credentials. I’ve been a little split on whether I should even publish this article, because it’s really making me feel like I’m beating up on a mentally handicapped kid (I feel even worse launching legal action against an invalid, but what choice might I have?). When it comes down to it, he is potentially endangering the public — at a minimum he is misleading them and stealing their money (and mine as well I suppose).

In any case, I hope this illustrates how important it is for consumers to be informed — scam artists and liars are rife in this industry (and in many others as well), and they’re not always easy to detect from afar.

Sincerely,

Shannon Larratt
BMEzine.com


Update

After I made it clear to Rafti that I wasn’t going to roll over on the copyright issues, and I informed his distributors and eliminated the majority of his ability to sell the book, he posted the following note on his website’s order page:

On of December 5, 2003 I became aware that some of the material I used in this book was improperly cited, this is very bad for me to have done. Over the last several years I have greatly improved my ability to organize things on the computer; this does not excuse any of the mistakes that I made along the way at all, even if I was unaware that I made them until now.

I sincerely believe that I’m doing very good work here, but I have a greater obligation to properly credit my sources than to add on top of something that obviously “stinks”, for this reason I am no longer making the Body Piercing Encyclopedia available for distribution in any format.

This project can not continue until I properly locate and credit sources that I have plagiarized. The problem in doing this obligatory task is that I have to compare all the information in my book, to all the information that is outside my book- logistically this is impossible for me to do.

If you support what Im trying to do, then I need each and everyone of you to send me any information that you can find of any material that I used without properly citing my source. I simply can not do this all by myself alone any longer, without your help the Body Piercing Encyclopedia Volume 1 is dead.

Please send constructive criticism only (please) to me at [email protected]

I wish to thank Mr. Shannon Larratt of BME for being the first to bring this to my attention, he does a lot of good work, Im sorry that I got some of his work confused with my own.

While I do appreciate that the stolen material is no longer being sold, it’s really “too little, too late”. The fact is that the result of my investigations into the text of the book strongly imply that it is nearly all stolen and from a myriad of sources — most of whom have no idea who Rafti even is (it’s not as if the webmasters of rhinoplasty4you are going to be buying his book). And I’m really not sure I buy his newfound “me so sorry” routine. I just can’t quite convince myself that one can “accidentally” commit fraud on this level and be totally unaware of doing it.

In cases of mass plagiarism it’s not enough to just say “let me know if you see anything stolen” — a request which makes it very clear that Rafti really has no idea where his text starts and the stolen text ends. I came into this review hoping that there would be something salvageable from this book, that my comments would result in improvements. However, I have come to the unavoidable conclusion that this book is rotten to its core and can not be saved.

Then of course there’s the matter of the money — Rafti has potentially made thousands of dollars by selling BME’s and other people’s work as his own. Personally I’m not in it for the money — I’ve always felt that this information should be as free as possible which is why BME/News, BME’s FAQs, glossary, risks, and encyclopedia projects have always been publicly accessible without charge and advertising-free. So while I may be entitled to it, I am not demanding at this moment that Rafti send me his profits. That said, if he wants to ethically purge himself I would encourage him to donate the proceeds to a suitable charity such as The Planetary Society, Antiwar.com, Adopt-a-minefield, or AIDS.org (and provide proof).

My only hope in all of this is that this “tough-love kick-in-the-ass” will help Rafti address these serious issues, both in his research methods and his deception about his potential skills. It’s clear from talking to him that Rafti is a driven individual who desperately wants to produce this project — and that’s a good thing. I do believe that Rafti has a better comprehension of the subject than most, and if he started over from scratch, being careful to properly document his sources, he might actually be able to produce something of real value.

That said, I don’t believe that Rafti is now or ever will be qualified to teach a piercing school and I think it’s a mistake for him to continue pursuing that path. I also think his needless confrontations with influential and integral individuals and organizations in the piercing world are constantly burning bridges and creating enemies where he should instead be fostering alliances and finding people to help him.

I think Wes Wood had the right idea when he said that he supported everyone who was working legitimately. I’m dismayed that Rafti is not. I’ll be surprised if he turns himself and this project around, but still, I hope he does.

The Beginnings of the Modern Body Piercing Movement [Running The Gauntlet – By Jim Ward]


3: The Beginnings of the
Modern Body Piercing Movement

Just for the record, I do not claim, nor have I ever claimed that I single-handedly started the modern body piercing movement. I was fortunate to be in the right place at the right time to focus and channel forces that were already at work in the world. Would the movement have happened without me? Possibly, but if it had, it probably wouldn’t look quite like it does today.

Body piercing has been around for countless millennia. However, in the early 1970’s it was practiced, in the Western world at least, largely by a handful of widely dispersed and closeted hardcore fetishists. At that point in my life I never really thought that there might be a lot of other people in the world who found piercing as erotic as I did.

In 1973, my first year in Los Angeles, I was pretty much immersed in Primal Therapy. I rented a small apartment in West Hollywood a short walk from the Primal Institute and kept pretty much to the neighborhood.

Towards the end of the year, a fellow patient named Diane told me about a small two-bedroom house that was for rent about a block away. I had seen it often enough on walks around the neighborhood. It dated from the teens when West Hollywood — then called Sherman — had been a whistle stop on the railroad between Los Angeles and Santa Monica. Aside from its ramshackle condition and the Christmas tree dying in a pot by the front steps, its most memorable feature was a concrete shrine in the front yard where a votive candle burned day and night to the Virgin Mary.

For decades an elderly Italian woman had occupied the house. I don’t recall if she died or had been put into a home, but the property had been sold. An eccentric old couple, Velma and Carl Henning were managing it. Mrs. Henning looked like Ma Kettle and was so stingy she would scrounge through the supermarket dumpster for food. Her husband was an old Nazi with a handlebar moustache who had migrated to the States after the war. While he may have left the vaterland behind, his racist viewpoints were still as fresh as ever, and he was only too happy to share them whether one was interested or not.

Once they took over, the Hennings made some changes to the property. They cleaned up the house and demolished the shrine in the front yard, leaving a pile of concrete rubble. A sheet of plywood was laid over the rotting boards on the front porch to keep people from falling through. Always looking for ways to make a little extra money, Mrs. Henning rented yard space next to the house to a hippie couple to park their old school bus home. Arrangements had been made for them to use the toilet, which was just inside the back door.



The old West Hollywood house shortly before it’s demolition.

Rent on the house was little more than I was paying for my tiny apartment, so I signed a lease on it and moved in. There was a certain squalid charm about the place, but there was much about it that made living there a challenge. Chief among its shortcomings was a total lack of insulation or heat. One always thinks of Southern California as a land of eternal warmth and sunshine, but my first winter in the old house shattered that illusion.

West Hollywood at the time was still unincorporated, but the community was already beginning to exhibit the signs of change that, in a few short years, would turn it into the cold, impersonal city it has become today. Many small charming homes that dotted the township were being torn down and replaced by ugly apartment buildings.

Diane and I took great pleasure in rummaging through the abandoned old homes before they were torn down. Frequently we’d return home with odds and ends and, occasionally, useful junk. Rifling through the trash piles at construction sites I scrounged enough insulation to keep some of the cold out of my house.

I had a large back yard with a rundown shed — once possibly a garage for a Model A — and a huge avocado tree that bore wonderful fruit in summer assuming the squirrels didn’t ruin it first. There was lots of space for a garden, and Diane and I attempted, with limited success, to grow a variety of vegetables and flowers. Not only was the soil poor and the snails and slugs abundant, but the yard was something of a cross between a dump and an archeological dig. One could scarcely turn a shovel of earth that didn’t contain some bit of junk, mostly old bottles and broken crockery.

Amongst the debris was an old enameled cast iron toilet tank. Possessed by some perverse ingenuity I turned it into a small wood burning stove, attaching a stove pipe which I ran outside through one of the living room windows. Fueled with wood scraps from construction sites, it provided a source of free heat. By some miracle I didn’t asphyxiate myself. The first time I built a fire in the stove I had to run for cover. As the cast iron heated up and expanded, bits of enamel began to fly like shrapnel.

The necessity to earn an income encouraged me to seek employment. My experience in picture framing lead to a job with a snooty frame shop in West Hollywood. Among their clientele were a number of well-known museums and celebrity artists. While the occasional treasure passed through our hands, most of what we handled was high priced crap masquerading as art. I realized that this was not a profession I wished to pursue as a lifetime career. But what did I want to do? I remember thinking at the time I’d like to have a profession where I could use my hands and what I worked with would be small and fit into them. I also thought it would be wonderful if it had a sexual dimension as well. Little did I realize what was soon to materialize in my life.

Diane came up with the idea that we should enroll in court reporting school. After all, it was a well paying profession with great job security. There likely would be a demand for court reporters well into the future.

So we signed up and started learning the fundamentals of stenotype. It didn’t take Diane long to lose interest and drop out. I stuck with it for almost a year, reaching a level where I could take about 120 words a minute and type up a transcript at about 100 words a minute. The beginning months had been filled transcribing innocuous clerical material along the lines of, “Dear Mr. Smith: Please send me ten cases of tea.” What kept me intrigued as long as it did was the very weirdness of stenotype itself — I remember seeing a license plate bearing the letters TPUBGU; in stenotype that spells, “fuck you.” But that could hold my interest just so long. When the teacher began dictating actual court material I realized just how deadly boring the life of a court reporter could be. I doubt many of them get to take down juicy Perry Mason cases.

But my stint at court reporting school was not a total loss. We were required to take and pass a comprehensive class in English grammar and punctuation. The class was well taught and unlike the boring classes I’d suffered through in high school, actually made sense. Little did I realize that it wouldn’t be long before what I’d learned would come in handy when I started a magazine about piercing.

For the first year of so, most of the friends I made were people from the Institute. The main exception was my friend Rod from Denver. He had been married for some years and had several grown children. Approaching middle age, he was no longer willing to deny the gay side of his nature. The year before I moved to LA, he packed a few essentials, said goodbye to wife and family, climbed on his Harley, and headed for California settling down in Los Angeles with a succession of male lovers. Soon after arriving he took a job as a bus driver.

I’ve often marveled at that thing we call fate. Is there really such a thing, and if not, how do we explain those amazing coincidences that happen in our lives?

Rod’s regular bus route was between Hollywood and downtown Los Angeles. One day an amiable long-haired gentleman boarded his bus, and taking a seat near the driver, struck up a conversation. The man’s name was Tom and he worked as a librarian at the downtown public library. Tom became a regular commuter on Rod’s bus, and one morning as they were chatting en route to downtown, a man with a pierced ear boarded the bus. The conversation turned to the subject of piercing and Rod said, “I have a friend with pierced nipples,” to which Tom replied, “I’d like to meet him.”

I must confess that I secretly hoped that Tom would be a sexy hunk, but instead I met a rather plain, round-faced, slightly heavy set man in need of dental work. Whatever he lacked in looks was offset, to some extent, by a sunny disposition and a passion for piercing. He shared with me a collection of letters and photographs from a number of fellow enthusiasts who, at the time, were unknown to me. Among these was one “Rollie Loomis” who would soon become known as Fakir Musafar. The photographs of him that Tom showed me were truly awesome. I’d never seen anything like them. They made me aware that there were many more piercing possibilities than I had ever dreamed of.

Another of Tom’s correspondents was a man named Doug Malloy. He was supposedly some well-traveled expert on the subject of piercing. Since he lived locally Tom arranged for us to get together one evening so I could meet him. We were to rendezvous at the public library where Tom worked and then go out for dinner.



Doug Malloy (left) and Alan Oversby aka Mr. Sebastian (right).

Doug arrived with a guest, a man named Alan Oversby. Over dinner I learned that Doug had recently written a short autobiographical account of his piercing exploits called The Adventures of a Piercing Freak. A somewhat sleazy fetish publisher had purchased it and to add visual interest had included a number of photographs bearing no relation to the text.



Alan showing his art work.

Alan, it turned out, was from England where he worked as a tattoo artist who also did some body piercing. His professional name was “Mr. Sebastian.” Doug had corresponded with him, and Alan had shown a great deal of interest in learning more about the art and technical aspects of piercing. Using the money from the sale of his book, Doug had paid for Alan to come to the States.

It was a pleasant evening. We parted company, and I heard nothing further from either Doug or Alan.

During my Primal Therapy experience I became a very good friend with another patient named Jim. After a couple of years at the Institute, he decided it was time to get on with his life and moved to San Francisco. Periodically I would fly up to spend a weekend with him. He would show me the sights. Sometimes we’d smoke a little grass and hit the gay nightspots.


Eric. In a way he started it all.

On one of these outings a guy named Eric came on to me. We spent some time together, and though the chemistry wasn’t exactly ideal, we started to see each other on a regular basis, sometimes in San Francisco, sometimes in LA. Eric was very turned on by my nipple piercings and called me to see if I would pierce his nipples the next time he came to LA. While I was certainly willing, I realized that my pushpin-and-wine-bottle-cork method left a lot of room for improvement. I also knew from my brief meeting with Doug that earrings were not the right jewelry for the job. Since a more knowledgeable source was close by, it made sense to see if I could get a little guidance.

I called Tom and, after explaining the situation, asked if he would give me Doug’s phone number. This he did, and I gave Doug a call, asking if he would be willing to share some of his piercing techniques with me and tell me where I might be able to purchase appropriate jewelry. He couldn’t have been more accommodating. The techniques he’d developed over the years were at my disposal. All I needed to do was let him know when Eric would be in town and we’d set something up.

As for jewelry there weren’t many choices. Doug knew of a jeweler in San Diego who would make gold rings, but the guy was asking $200 apiece for them. This was much more than I was willing to pay. Having taken several jewelry making classes in New York, including one for professionals, I had a pretty good idea what it would take to make a pair of nipple rings, and $400 was way out of line. As I got to thinking about it, I realized that for a fraction of that amount of money I could buy the raw materials and the necessary tools as well.



The nipple retainer, my very first body piercing jewelry design.

Doug and I had several discussions about the best kind of jewelry to use for new nipple piercings. There was some question whether they would heal better with a curved ring or something that was straight. In the end we decided that maybe something straight would be the better choice. With that in mind I set out to design something appropriate. Thus came into being my first pieces of body piercing jewelry. I called them “nipple retainers.”

Consulting the Yellow Pages I discovered a lapidary shop in nearby Hollywood. They were able to supply enough gold wire for the project and the various tools I needed, all for under $50.

Early tools of the trade. The ear piercer was eventually consigned to history, but Pennington forceps are now a piercing staple.

Once the jewelry was made, Eric arranged to come down to LA for the piercing. We set up a time for Doug to come over and supervise. He brought his “kit” of implements. These included a pair of Pennington forceps, now an industry standard but at that time something pretty exotic. There was also an assortment of heavy gauge hypodermic needles, the kind used on livestock, and what in the 1950’s had no doubt been a state-of-the-art ear-piercing gun. This latter contraption consisted of plunger on the end of which was a removable needle about 3/4” long. Over the needle fit a short metal sleeve called a canula. By pressing firmly on the plunger, the needle and canula were forced through the tissue and a fork-like stop on the opposite side. Once the pressure was released, a spring would retract the plunger pulling back the needle and, hopefully, leaving the canula in the tissue. The jewelry could then be inserted by butting it against the end of the canula and following it through the piercing.

My mother worked for twenty five years for an eye doctor, so I had gained some rudimentary awareness that sterilization of the instruments was in order. Fortunately I had a pressure cooker which I usually used for cooking, but it worked just fine as a stand-in for an autoclave. These were the days before AIDS, so we gave no thought to latex gloves. After all, even dentists and tattooists worked without them. Only doctors doing surgery wore them. We assumed that as long as our hands got a thorough washing, that was enough.

The piercing process may have been crude, but at least we got the jewelry insertion principle right.

Except for using the ear-piercing gun as part of the procedure, the piercing technique itself was much like it is today. The nipple was first cleaned. Since surgeons were using it in surgery, we had elected to use Betadine instead of alcohol. Next a dot was made on either side of the nipple where we wanted the opening of the piercing to be. A rubber band was wrapped several times around the handle of the Pennington forceps and adjusted for the right grip. The nipple was clamped into the forceps and the marks aligned in the same place on either side. Once the ear-piercing gun was placed in position, the needle and canula were forced through the nipple. As the needle retracted, the canula was left in place. After laying aside the gun, the forceps were removed and the jewelry inserted.

Though still crude by today’s standards, Doug’s technique worked amazingly well, and the piercing went smoothly. Eric returned to San Francisco happy.

Soon afterward Doug called me up and asked me to have lunch with him. He picked me up in his sports car, and we went to the Red Room, a little Swedish café in West Hollywood not far from the frame shop where I worked. Over lunch the conversation naturally turned to the subject of piercing. To my surprise Doug said he thought I should start a piercing business. I already knew how to make the jewelry. All that remained was for him to teach me what he knew about the various piercings and his techniques for doing them. I could start out working part time from home, and he would share his private mailing list of enthusiasts around the world as the basis for mail order. When I pointed out that I lacked the capital to launch such an endeavor, he told me he was prepared to lend me whatever it would take. He firmly believed that a need existed for such a business and told me that from the moment he first laid eyes on me at the library, he’d known that we were destined to do something together. This was it.

Presented with such a generous offer and the possibility of creating a career for myself doing something I loved was not something I could pass up. I said yes.

Next: In The Beginning There Was Gauntlet


Jim Ward is is one of the cofounders of body piercing as a public phenomena in his role both as owner of the original piercing studio Gauntlet and the original body modification magazine PFIQ, both long before BME staff had even entered highschool. He currently works as a designer in Calfornia where he lives with his partner.

Copyright © 2003 BMEzine.com LLC. Requests to publish full, edited, or shortened versions must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published November 11th, 2003 by BMEzine.com LLC in Tweed, Ontario, Canada


Should Todd Bertrang Go To Jail? [The Publisher’s Ring]


Should Todd Bertrang Go To Jail?


"The only freedom which deserves the name is that of pursuing our own good in our own way, so long as we do not attempt to deprive others of theirs, or to impede their efforts to obtain it."


– John Stuart Mill

As many of you know, body modification artist Todd Bertrang was arrested under charges of practising medicine without a license via “Operation Safe Medicine” in December for performing female genital cutting and other unusual procedures. Even though the procedures were all consensual, and Todd Bertrang has one of the highest customer satisfaction levels in this community, the state medical board investigators referred to the people getting the procedures as “victims” and called the procedures “illegal and disfiguring”*.

Let’s be honest for a minute about the world of underground extreme body modification: it’s a dangerous and unregulated industry which contains many shady characters, as well as many gems who are genuinely improving the lives of thousands of people. I’m not writing this column to tell you that I think Todd Bertrang is one of those gems, nor am I writing this to tell you the opposite. Todd is very up front about who he is and what he does, so there’s no deception going on, and readers can make up their mind for themselves.

But there’s a larger issue at stake: Do we as free individuals have the right to dictate what happens to our bodies? Do we as free individuals have the right to choose who will alter our bodies, or may we only do so with the approval of state-licensed “experts”?

People seek out Todd Bertrang over other practitioners (including doctors) because he is one of the few people experienced in and willing to perform radical female cutting including clitorodectomies (removal of part or all of the clitoris – and before you freak out, yes, sex is still a lot of fun afterwards) – these are not procedures generally offered by the “official” medical community in America. So not only are they telling Todd that he can’t do the procedure, but they are also telling us, as “free” individuals, that we may not have the procedure done by anyone!

Todd Bertrang’s first court date is January 21st in downtown Los Angeles at 8:30AM. Anyone wishing to go and show their support should go to the courthouses at 210 W. Temple Street Div #30 at that time.

To quote Shawn Porter’s comments on the subject,


Regardless of your feelings about Todd personally (I'm quite fond of the old pervert) his arrest brings with it a wakeup call that people ARE paying attention to what we're doing "underground" these days. Mark my words: this will not be the last arrest of a modification artist (Ask Alva and Steve T.).... so if you want to show up and lend Todd some support, I'm sure he'll welcome you.

And he’s right – they know perfectly well Todd isn’t practising medicine, and if they win this they will systematically eliminate any private practitioner not willing to pay their dues. Was Todd offering body modification services? Definitely. Advanced sexual services and counselling? Definitely. But he was not offering medical treatment in any AMA-traditional definition of the word.

I know a lot of people have issues with Todd. He comes from a different background than many of the younger generation of cutters and piercers, and I think they have difficulty understanding why he sees the world the way he does. On that note, I’d like to let Todd speak for himself. Several years ago I interviewed him for BMEradio. A transcript of that interview follows this column.

Todd can be reached via his website at www.toddbertrang.com or on IAM as (obviously) “Todd Bertrang“.

Thank you, and good luck,

Shannon Larratt

BMEzine.com

* You have to love how it’s “disfigurement” when we do it, but if the person doing it has paid their fees to the government to get a doctor’s certificate, it then becomes “cosmetic surgery”.



Shannon Larratt: Welcome back everyone, I’m Shannon Larratt and you’re listening to the 16th broadcast of BMEradio. Today’s show may be a little bit more discoordinated than usual cause we’re doing this interview across time zones, so it’s real late here and I’ve got coffee in one hand and a beer in the other hand. So, probably not a healthy thing. Anyway, the person we’re speaking with today is probably generated more online hate mail than any other body modification artist but at the same time almost everyone that’s had work done by him swears by him and never goes to a mainstream piercer again. His techniques involve almost exclusively large gauges and the majority of his procedures use a scalpel far more than a needle. His aftercare is radically different than what you’d be told by either your piercer or your doctor and to top it all off, his opinions are exclusionary and if you don’t do it his way you’re probably not doing it right. Todd Bertrang, thanks for talking to us today.

Todd Bertrang: That was quite an intro Shannon.

SL: It was.

TB: I was trying not to giggle on the other end. [laugh]

SL: [laugh]

TB: Oh boy, I hadn’t quite the idea I had that kind of reputation there [laugh].

SL: Well if you have anything it’s a reputation. Todd, the first thing I want to ask you about is piercing technique. Why go big?

TB: Well, the right size is not necessarily big. It’s the right size for the right body part. When you’re dealing in below the neck areas you’re generally dealing in an area that moves more such as the navel, in an area that swells and expands and contracts considerably with heat, cold, and sexual arousals such as your nipples and your genital region. When you’re dealing in a thin gauge such as a 14 gauge (ga), you put it in your earlobe or your eyebrow well hey, that’s just fine. But these areas do not do that. When you have a thin gauge in these areas it tends to be like a dull knife in the skin and continually cuts the skin area building up massive scar tissue which becomes hardened and then continually cuts over time and causes loss of sensation, migration, rejection, all kinds of serious problems such as a permanent pathway for all types of infectious diseases to get into the body. It’s really bad for you to start with the wrong thing in the wrong area. The difference here of opinion is if you have a thin gauge and you heal in a inappropriate manner, most people consider that if they have a ring in their thing it would be a good piercing. And that is not my opinion. A ring in your thing means that you have a ring in your thing and that’s it. It doesn’t make it good, it doesn’t make it bad.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: But it can be done generally better than putting, shall we say a 14 ga in your nipple for example, much better, with much better results. Doesn’t mean that the 14 ga is wrong it means that you, why go buy a Model T when you can go buy a Ferrari? You know? Why do that?

SL: Well, I think that some people would say that they like the look of the 14 ga.

TB: Sure. But some people do it just for looks.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I agree most of these people who do it for looks have absolutely no concept of how good it can feel with the proper gauge and healing techniques. That is saying, “Well, gee I really want to make love to my boyfriend but um, is this supposed to feel good?”

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: “What’s an orgasm?” [laugh] And there’s people out there like that. I mean really really bad. I went to the Ink Slingers Ball here recently last year and these girls wanted to show me what kind of genital piercings could be done and this girl was thirty some years old, had kids, and had no concept what a hood was or what inner labia was. And Ellen Thompson [AVN magazine] was with me and she saw, “Wait a minute here. You’re like thirty something years old and you’ve got children and you don’t even know what labia is? You’ve never heard this word?” She was just aghast at this girl. And she had no concept.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay? And you’re dealing in the same thing if someone has education, takes the time to educate someone about heir body and what can be done and why and what the differences are, they won’t get a 14 ga in their nipple. The problem is, it’s going to take two or three hours to sit there and educate the person what and why and what’s going on and you’re dealing in a profit ratio of thirty plus percent for a 14 ga ring in your nipple as opposed to maybe doubling or tripling your money on a 6 ga ring, if you invest thousands of dollars to have them done properly, which most manufacturers don’t make 6 ga correctly.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: When Silver Anchor was in business literally I’d spend three to ten thousand dollars an order. Okay, and I don’t have the volume that most of these people do. That’s a lot of money. Okay, and I invest that to have my stuff done right and I would still only get my price down to six, 6 ga to twelve dollars a ring, whereas you can buy a 14 ga for a buck.

SL: Yeah. [affirmative noise] I think part of the other thing is, and this is even more the case in Europe that there’s this sort of denial that even genital piercing is a sexual thing.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: I think there are a lot of piercers who don’t want to admit, you know they want you to believe that it’s a, that it’s just decoration.

TB: Last I heard I heard in England it’s illegal to get pierced for a sexual reason. You can pierce anything, until you say it’s illegal or something.

SL: It certainly was. It may not be now but it certainly was at one point.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And that point where you know those were the rules, that’s when piercing sort of defined itself.

TB: Right.

SL: Anyway, I was going to ask you more about this later, but since we’ve moved into it now.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: I want to talk a bit about the overlap between piercing and sexuality. That’s actually how you learned how to pierce.

TB: Yes, it, when I saw my first piercing, which, if anybody’s read my interview from Gauntlet years ago it was a tremendous emotional, mental, sexual response. And this was, I mean I was 18 years old, and 18 years old and anything new and wild and wow, I mean your hormones are in full swing but at the time you just didn’t see this and this girl was very beautiful and she had her nose pierced of all things and it didn’t even, hadn’t even occurred to me that you could pierce anything besides your ear which was common, if you were a girl, at the time but I mean you didn’t see anything else. It was right here in LA, and I was just like, ‘Oh my god, this is just incredible.’ I must have followed her around the store with my mouth hanging open it was just, it struck me that, that tremendous. And when I finally went out and got pierced which took me, there was several things, it took me so long, one, the relationship I was in six years ago was just, couldn’t deal with it, but society at the time, if you were male and you had a piercing you were considered gay and there’s historical reason for this. Jim Ward, the owner of The Gauntlet was gay, a leather gay, and he was very very heterophobic and literally kept piercings in the closet for many years because of that. Because he didn’t want the straight people to get pierced. He didn’t like them at all. And when he did his first clit piercing, the girl literally had to sit there and show him what a clitoris was, he had no concept at all of what a clitoris was. And the, an interesting aside to Gauntlet, and I want to bring this up right now, my techniques which would make me so controversial are anything but gauntlet techniques. And everybody that is following literally what Gauntlet has developed. Jim Ward was a good businessman. He was the biggest and the best, he was backed by a millionaire, Doug Malloy, which is why he succeeded when everybody else at the time failed, because there were other small people around, but they didn’t have the money, they didn’t have the backing…

SL: Well I think I want to interject that too…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And I think that a lot of people forget that, that you know Gauntlet was the first business and you know there’s this mythology that at the time there were you know seven people in North America involved in piercing but that’s a load of crap right. There were…

TB: Gauntlet was the only store exclusively devoted to piercing, so I mean there’s the odd ear gun mall or tattooist doing the ear gun piercing in the store.

SL: What I’m saying is back then even though there weren’t you know piercing studios on every corner like there are now, there were still tens of thousands of people practicing piercing in their homes.

TB: Yeah there was people piercing in their homes.

SL: And I think that it was, it didn’t have you know the tribal sort of overtures that a lot of that it has now or any of that it was all in the sexual arena.

TB: It was entirely, piercing, even Gauntlet came from a sexual arena.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It was all leather gay. It was all wild intense sex.

SL: [affirmative noise] But it wasn’t…

TB: Piercing came from an entirely sexual arena it hasn’t gone to what’s not sexual until recently when people consider you know all the young teeny-boppers who are afraid to admit that, “Gee I get my tongue pierced because I might give my boyfriend head tonight.”

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: You know, they’re too afraid to admit that, “Gee I wanna get fucked.”

SL: And it’s not just…

TB: I mean, they’re young kids, they’re immature young kids that do it, because they saw their buddy do it.

SL: And it’s not just, it’s not even just weird sex too, I mean I think piercing adds to even just vanilla sex.

TB: [affirmative noise] Oh yeah, it has nothing to do with any type of specific sex but it did come from a very heavy SM environment. Which was Gauntlet’s roots.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And Gauntlet was created to cater to the leather gay SM environment this was the entire purpose of Gauntlet in its conception.

SL: Yeah, anyway I want to talk a bit more about this, but we’re going to take a quick music break, this is, my doctor just told me I’m not allowed to eat any more chocolate so…

TB: [laugh]

SL: This is some live Shonen Knife who does like chocolate.

     (song plays)

SL: Todd we were talking on the break about how even, even just facial piercing is a kind of sexual behavior.

TB: It is. Totally.

SL: How’s that?

TB: Whenever you change your body whatsoever, or lack of change, having dreadlocks for example, I don’t wash my hair and I twist it around and round and round and it’s dirty and smelly, whatever you do, whatever you do, I don’t care what it is, you wear a suit, you wear nothing, you paint your body, you cut your hair, you shave your head, anything you do to it to change it’s look will cause your self and your personality to be perceived differently by those around you.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Which is causing a sexual attraction with those around you within a certain parameter based upon your perception of your self of those who you want to attract.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Piercing does this even more so than anything else you can do because it’s a statement, it’s a poke in the eye, “Look at me, look at my shiny thing in my body!” And draws attention to that. And how anybody can say that piercing is a non-sexual thing is literally wearing blinders about what sexuality is all about and what people do. Why does a girl wear a miniskirt, why does she wear makeup, why does she wear perfume, why does she spend thousands of dollars on nice clothes? Because she thinks she’s ugly? Cause she doesn’t want somebody to come up and ask her out? Cause she doesn’t want to feel good about herself? Or because she’s doing it because she feels good about her sexuality and wants to be sexual? You have two choices here.

SL: No, I…

TB: A or B.

SL: Anyway we, you were, we were talking about how you actually learned how to pierce and a lot of it was, it was a period in your life where you were I guess promiscuous and you know you experimented with piercing with your girlfriends and…


Sanctuary
by Todd Bertrang



Looking at the door
She did not know what was in store
Trembling with fear
She felt that HE was near
Locked in bracelets
Her neck in a collar

She knew she could be sold for a dollar
Timidly knocking
Kneeling down, she felt the floor against her stockings
Butterflies in her stomach
With her labia so incredibly swollen
She knew it was time for her virginity to be stolen
A fresh brand on her thigh
Combined, her slavery, her innermost thoughts,
Newly healed piercings

All those things made her so incredibly high
Abruptly she started
When she heard the name she had been given called
The doorway parted
She tried so hard not to be appalled
By the looks of the furs
At the base of the bed
In the dungeon of her Master
Knowing what he was after

A pan was prepared
That later she may be fed
From his hand if she was found pleasing
Now she knew, there would be no teasing
But she must fulfill every wish, every desire
Commanded of her
Brought forth gently by her hair
Made to kneel
The collar on her neck chained to the floor

The foot of the bed
Next to her the pan
Where, perhaps, later she may be fed
Swiftly put upon her back
Legs spread
Her engorged labia weighted down
By her newly healed piercings
Creating even more wetness
Then she had dared dream

She felt her body steam
As he spread her lips
She moaned
As his tongue and the stud he wore
Gently massaged her swollen vulva
Moaning then screaming in ecstasy
She knew herself owned
And what she truly was
A slave

Thank you Master she said



TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And through that, through that you learned what piercings worked sexually, how they worked…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And all of that…

TB: Through that I learned size, gauge, placement, diameter, I came up with a lot of the theories that I use today. I took a lot of time to develop those theories because of lack of tools, because of lack of proper jewellery and so forth. I literally had to front the money for a company to start so that I could get the jewellery in 8 ga made in half-inch diameter. It didn’t exist at the time unless you wanted to spend a hundred dollars a ring.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Like, which obviously I couldn’t afford that, it was too much.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: [cough] Back, the, it’s a, for a younger person in their twenties or their teens it’s really a myth of the sexual revolution and free love of the hippie days and all this sort of thing but the reality is until roughly 1990 if you were in the heterosexual crowd in a big city and you went out to a club and you wanted to go home and sleep with someone you literally went home and you met someone and you fucked them. It was that simple. It was that easy. You met someone on the street corner, they stuck their thumb out and within an hour you were in bed. And this was normal. This is what everybody did. No condom, no protection, no worry about AIDS, no worry about disease, and they did it for years, I never got anything. And at the time I was going out to clubs in Hollywood and if I wanted a girl to have a piercing, well guess who got to pierce her? They didn’t have them.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: You didn’t see people a lot in Hollywood with pierced anything. I mean, I was in the thick of the club scene in Hollywood and I had little 14 ga nipple rings and I had crowds around me because I had my nipples pierced. You didn’t see it. They were like, “Oh my god look at that guy.” And today this is common but it wasn’t then. But today, the other side of the coin is you don’t go out and just meet someone and hop in bed in an hour, that’s uncommon, it’s really rare.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Things have changed, society has changed. But that’s literally what I’d do, I’d go out and I’d go to clubs and I’d meet a girl and I’d bring her home and shave her pussy and pierce her nipples and if I liked her and she hung out and we went out again I’d pierce her pussy and if I liked her and hung out again and I’d pierce a few other things.

SL: [laugh]

TB: But, the I kept in touch with the vast majority of these girls and so it taught me a lot. It taught me a lot, a lot. Because when you, when you’re dealing in, let’s say I was in a massive volume store and I was doing twenty-thirty thousand piercings a year, well first off I wouldn’t have a chance to talk to these people, I’d just poke a hole and send them on their way and here’s your little paragraph of instructions.

SL: And more importantly you wouldn’t have a chance to fuck them afterwards.

TB: Well, regardless of whether you fuck them or not you don’t have the opportunity to actually sit down, and in a intimate environment see what’s really happening with their body and what’s working.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Regardless of whether you actually stuck something inside them you got to see…

SL: Well obviously that’s what I mean, you got to see how it works.

TB: Exactly. Exactly. I got to see what is working and why. What is working on my body getting them off, why is it working, what’s working on their body and all their different shapes and sizes and why?

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: In this very very intense sexual arena.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And that gives me an insight that I don’t know that anybody else has. At all.

SL: You know, I think you’re probably right. The few promiscuous piercers I can think of are gay.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And that’s a whole different set of issues I’m sure.

TB: Yes, it’s a whole different set of issues, and while I’m not gay, I’ve still had plenty of anal sex which works very similar so I have, I have insights into all types of sexuality from the straight to the bisexual to the gay set because of the amount of women I’ve been with and the amount of different types of sex I’ve had so…

SL: [affirmative noise] Well let me ask, is it, I mean now that you’re doing this as a business a bit is it sometimes difficult, do the lines blur between client and girlfriend? Or…is it…

TB: When you have enough sexual experience.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: You can tell if someone wants to be approached or not, okay, when you’re a young male and you’re 18 or 20 years old you don’t know whether this girl wants you to ask her out. What you do is ask them all out or you don’t get laid okay?

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I get a lot of flack for this because I go into BME chat and I try to explain to people, it’s like this is like going to a bar, I’m off here, I’m not working, and I might flirt with every girl in there but I’m flirting, this isn’t real, this is cyber here, one. This is what we’re doing, we’re in here to chat, flirt, have a good time. It’s not like they’re in front of me and their clothes are off.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: One and two, in a real live situation, you can look at someone if you have enough sexual experience and you can tell right away whether they want to fuck you or not and you have the option to pick up on that and decide whether you want them or not. But if you approach someone with the sexual experience I have you already whether they want you to.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: So I don’t…

SL: Yeah.

TB: Of ‘Gee should I ask this girl out and what’s she gonna say?’

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Ever.

SL: I mean, I think you know that one of the things that people accuse you of is sort of you know being on the prowl for young girls to, you know to modify in the chat rooms and things like that. How would you respond to people saying that?

TB: Well, it’s exactly what I was saying, it’s not, I’m off, they’re not walking into my house, they’re not walking into my studio okay?

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I’m off, this is my off time. I’m out having fun. What, just because I’m a piercer, if I go to a club, okay regardless of the fact whether I’m a piercer or not, if I’m going out to a club to meet girls and get laid what am I gonna do? I’m going to flirt with them, I’m hopefully going to talk about my piercings, whether they want some, because if they don’t want any, why do I want to take them home?

SL: Yeah.

TB: Okay, if they’re not into piercing, I don’t even want to know their name.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I just crossed them out. If they can’t talk about my piercings and I can’t ask them about theirs, they’re done, off to the next one. That’s in a club social environment where you’re going to go out and trying to get laid.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: But these people that are accusing me of that, they’ve never met me, they haven’t walked into my studio, they haven’t been pierced by me, okay? You don’t do that in a commercial environment.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay. And like I said, if, when the average person is accusing me of this, is in their mid twenties or younger, they didn’t live through the sexual revolution, they haven’t had hundreds and hundreds of sexual partners, which from their standpoint that’s just like, “Oh my god you’re kidding me you’re lying.” It didn’t happen. Where I’m standing from it’s like, that’s all I had, most of my friends had thousands. [laugh]

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It was just a different lifestyle. Hell, I’m 37, I’m at the bottom rung of these. Most of my friends are 45-50 years old and they did it for a whole decade prior to me getting old enough to do it and they had thousands of partners. It was nothing.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It was just really common, but if you have enough sexual experience you could look at someone and you could read their body language and you know, literally, you know if you could walk up to them stick your tongue down their throat and your hands down their pants and have them like it. Right then and there.

SL: But like you said, this is a different generation, these are, you know like you said 16-25 year old kids that just don’t have that experience and don’t know how to deal with this sort of thing.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: So, you know who knows maybe it’s not, I mean, if it, may be appropriate in one environment but not necessarily in this one. Either way, this is, I didn’t want to really get into this in the interview.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: It doesn’t really, who cares right?

TB: [laugh]

SL: Anyway, what I do want to talk to you a bit about after this song is a bit about your aftercare cause you use, I don’t know what the best word for it is, certainly a more organic aftercare than most sort of chemical ridden people are…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Recommending…anyway we’re going to continue on that Japanese pop trend, this is Robo Shop Mania — Smile and Shine.

     (song plays)

SL: Alright Todd tell me, someone gets a say someone gets a PA [Prince Albert] from you what’s the aftercare you recommend?

TB: Depends on the gauge, what people don’t realize, they hear about this large gauge stuff and this and that the thicker you go the more intense it is. Cause you are causing more tissue damage so you really have to get your aftercare together. You can’t just go, “Oh do salt soaks.” “Oh use saline.” You know, you really have to know what you’re doing. And the more tissue damage you cause the more intensity it is and you really have to have the next level of intense aftercare just right to make it heal or you’re going to have a problem, a really big problem. So depending upon the person’s maturity level, what type of sexual response they want to achieve, what type of aftercare that I think they’re willing to do, and I sit there and explain the differences between an 8 and a 6 and a 4 and a 2 ga and what they’re really going to have to do to heal it and so forth, and literally, a 2 ga PA I can heal those on someone who’s healthy who doesn’t drink who actually eats red meat and doesn’t do drugs in 2 weeks. Done. But it’s a very intense 2 weeks. And somebody has got to be willing to deal with the intensity. They can’t just get this and go back to work and pretend nothing has happened.

SL: So what do they do?

TB: They’ve had very intense minor surgery. That they did.

SL: So what do they do?

TB: Say if we’re doing a 2 ga this is a scalpel procedure. It’s going to bleed.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And I use three herbs for healing, which are antibiotic, anti-inflammatory, one’s a very good anti-bruising agent and I also use another herb that will slow and finally stop the blood loss. It’s not an instant, you put it on you have to soak it, soak it and finally it will stop the blood loss, so they’re going to be sticking their dick in a cup of these herbs for a good hour or two if it finally stops the blood. Depending upon how healthy they are, how much stress they’re under, how much sleep they’ve got, all this contributes when you’re dealing with a large gauge piercing, what you’re going to be able to experience or not they can expect to be sitting in the bathroom with this cup, with their dick in this cup for at least an hour and up to 3 or 4 hours, and then it will seep for about 24 hours which I’d rather sit with my dick in a cup than having a big baggie of blood the next day. It’s much better. It’ll seep for the next day or two and if their dick gets really large upon erection which some really swell, is then they’re going to have that nice big baggie of blood around their dick the next day if they get an evening erection.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: In the middle of the night. But…

SL: So what…

TB: Well they have, they have showers, they have a special herb that they put on…

SL: Todd, let me interrupt here.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: The special herbs, can you say what they are or is this Todd’s magic formula that you don’t want to give out?

TB: Well, the main herbs are on the site, they’re lavender, red clover and arnica, arnica is the anti-bruising agent they’re all anti-inflammatory antibiotics.

SL: All fairly well known ones, yeah people can look them up on any number of sites, if they want to learn more about them.

TB: Right. The other herb is an Aztec herb called Quatrolatte and this herb if overused is extremely dangerous, but it’s extremely potent which is why I don’t have it on my site because you can overuse it very easily you can over dry yourself.

SL: What happens?

TB: Right.

SL: It dries out the tissue if you use too much.

TB: It can dry out the tissue and cause a major problem.

SL: Same as alcohol or…

TB: Well…

SL: I mean, same drying effect.

TB: It has a drying effect. It doesn’t have the crystallization effect alcohol will for lack of a better term. It, to give you an idea, let’s say someone has a bleeding ulcer, well contemporary medical science says, “Well we have to cut this out. And re-sew your stomach lining it’s the only way we can heal it.” Well, literally Quatrolatte will dry it up and cure it and heal it.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Quatrolatte is strong enough to where, let’s say you have a 3rd degree burn and just doing soaks with just this herb and peeling off the dead tissue as it dries daily, I’d say a third degree burn on your hand all you’re going to have by the time you’re done healing it is a slight discoloration.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It’s that potent, but you have to know how to use the herb. You can really injure someone if you don’t know what you’re doing. And most people, they don’t know. So that’s why I didn’t put it up on the site.

SL: Where did you figure out how to use it?

TB: My girl Ophie who I’ve been with for 8 years her uncle was renowned Mexican herbalist who people fly in from all over the world and specifically mention I gave you of the hand burning, her aunt used that on her cousin and that was the result when she was a little girl.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: From just that herb.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And when I met her I had a little bit of a subincision, and the next time I did a cutting, and she mentioned that herb and we brought it out and we tried it and I tend to experiment around on my own body before I use it on other people so I get the whole feeling of what exactly I’m doing. And that’s exactly how I learned to use the herb is on my penis.

SL: It’s definitely the best way to learn doing stuff on yourself.

TB: Right, yeah. I’m absolutely in amazement when people go, “Oh I’m a piercer” and they’ve got two or three piercings. Like, well no, you’re someone who pretends to be a piercer who pokes holes in people and takes money. That they have no comprehension of what they’re doing.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: That’s my opinion of those people.

SL: Well I know a lot of my understanding of the way piercing works is just by having had tons of piercings and you know, knowing how they’ve all healed differently and having treated them differently and you know seeing the different results.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Anyway, the next thing I want to ask you Todd is this is probably something you’ve gotten an awful lot of online flack about and you know when I’ve mentioned to people, you know I’m interviewing Todd Bertrang is there anything you want to ask him everyone said, ask him about his autoclave. Um, so tell me Todd what’s up with your autoclave?

TB: Well, I actually happen to have one. [laugh]

SL: But you don’t always use it?

TB: No. Piercers have this thing thinking that they have medical training. They don’t. Usually. Anybody that truly has medical training knows that there are chemical sterilization processes. Anybody who has medical training has heard of what they call an endoscope, what an endoscope is, is a camera that they can use to put down your arteries to see whether they’re clogged or not an endoscope is not autoclavable. There is nothing more infectious, or capable of being infected easier with more damaging results than your arteries or your heart. Period end of story. But if they can put an endoscopes in Wavocide and use it just fine but, ‘Oh my god we can’t put a piercing needle in it.’ They have no concept of what they’re doing at all.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: They scare me that they’re so ignorant of true medical terminology, medical science to say this is a must. Okay. The reason why they said it was a must is because the APP said it’s a must and the APP said it’s a must because an autoclave at the time cost forty-five hundred bucks. And Gauntlet didn’t want all these little piercing stores popping up doing piercings and they thought they could control it like that.

SL: Cause you buy a jug of Wavocide for forty bucks.

TB: Bingo. And be sterile.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay? Wavocide is perfectly sterile when used properly.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: This stuff is wonderful, when it doesn’t work anymore it turns colour you can see it’s not going to work.

SL: Yeah, no it’s true I’ve used Wavocide as well, I agree with you. You know and I think that brings up the point that is interesting that a lot of piercers they don’t really, they never really concentrate on understanding what they’re doing they, piercing for them is sort of a rules based system you know. And that’s why…

TB: [affirmative noise] Yeah, well you know the same with doctors, they go to medical school…

SL: Yeah.

TB: They get their PhD and all they know about is what they read. And piercers do the same thing, which is absolutely pathetic. There’s no concept for any room of improvement and any experimentation any true understanding of the process of what they’re actually doing to someone. And here they’re altering someone’s life.

SL: Well I think it would be alright if you’re a carpenter or something that’s a very established field you know where we’ve done ten thousand years of research but…

TB: Right.

SL: You know piercing in the west is a new field you know. I think people who are piercing need to be on their toes and need to really know what they’re doing and need to, need to always be learning and I think a lot of them aren’t.

TB: I’d say that 99.999% of them are not, or learn to a degree and they’re done.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And the other side to the coin is there’s two ways to make money in this business. Okay? Put up with the fact you’re not, or you get to a point where all you do is production piercing. You’re in and out, you’re gone and it’s good enough to create a hole and a ring and see ya.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Because if you can’t do it that way you’re not going to make any money. There are people who make a hundred grand a year or better in this pierce, in this business but that’s the only way they’re doing it. They’re in and out the smallest as possible, okay, we can’t give them the next size up if we can get them the smallest one because then we don’t get that next size stretch.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay? And if their happy with your work they’re going to come back to you and get your jewellery, you get 70% back of everything you do and it takes this $30 piercing and by the time they come back and they stretch and every time they come back and they get something else or their buddy does and over the course of a year it turns this $30 piercing into two-thousand bucks.

SL: Sure, you’re selling them subscriptions instead of a single magazine.

TB: Exactly. And that’s what makes money. But unfortunately, as far as what the piercee is considered what it could be it’s absolutely detrimental to the piercee.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I mean it’s fine if they want a 14 ga eyebrow but if they want a really good sexual piercing or if they want something really good otherwise, I mean a lot of the people don’t want a 14 ga labret they want an 8 ga labret. But they go in and, “Oh no no we have to start like this and stretch it up” because it makes them money. That’s all it’s about.

SL: Let me ask you Todd, what’s the difference, say someone gets a 12 ga PA…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: And over the period of a year stretches it up to 2 ga, how is that, how is the end result different from a…

TB: It’s quite a bit different.

SL: Alright.

TB: Depending on how they healed it. Having had a 12 ga PA and stretched it out myself, assuming they even get good placement which most people who start at 12 ga won’t place them properly. Let’s assume they get good placement what happens is, because it’s thinner, you’re creating a much denser area of scar tissue. It’s much harder to stretch. The denser area of scar tissue is much less sensitive. So they just desensitized their dick. Why had they, did you use, get desensitized, a piercing for sensation and do it in such a way that it desensitizes the area that you put it in. That’s pretty stupid.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay, that’s what it does. You, you will lose anywhere from 30-100% of your sensation from starting from small in that given area.

SL: Well I don’t think that’s true for everyone though.

TB: For 80% of the people.

SL: Well I don’t know if I’d agree with that number but…

TB: That’s going, based upon statistical average based upon my 12 years of experience from what I’ve seen. Who’ve I pierced and who I’ve come in contact with.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: To give you an example, I, now I didn’t have sex with these two people, I took them at their word. I’ve talked to two girls who swear up and down that prior to getting their nipples pierced at 14 ga they became breast orgasmic. Prior to getting their nipples pierced they weren’t.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay? At 6 or 4 ga, you’re dealing in 80% or better are going to be able to have breast orgasms from those piercings done and healed properly at that time. But you’re not going to get that when you pierce at a 14 ga and stretch it out.

SL: [affirmative noise] Well I will tell you I’ve got a few e-mails in the last month of girls writing me you know asking whether it was normal for you know their nipple piercings to eliminate feeling in their nipples. These are regular 14 ga nipples.

TB: It’s very very common.

SL: So I…

TB: Especially over time, especially over a couple of years.

SL: You know we can…

TB: Because the scar tissue continually builds up because it’s continually expanding and contracting and cutting that and I would say somewhere between 30-50% lose partial to complete sensation in a piercing done thinner than 8 ga in the nipples.

SL: Yeah, I think we could…

TB: Conservatively.

SL: Yeah I think we could argue about those percentages but I’ll say even if it’s one in fifty there’s, it’s a, even that one in fifty is a solid argument for why not do it bigger.

TB: In my opinion even if it’s one in a thousand, it’s too much.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Too many.

SL: [affirmative noise] Because…yeah, you know you’re right, even you know obviously a whole different set of play is available in an 8 ga or larger piercing than in a, you know…

TB: Yeah, I mean why…

SL: Even if you’re into light, you know just light play, it’s really easy to accidentally give that piercing a solid tug you know and you can do damage.

TB: Yeah, real easily. Look at it this way. If the girl doesn’t like to have, or the guy like to have a dull knife stuck inside them and get off that way, then why are they putting a dull knife in their nipple why are they putting a dull knife inside of their penis or labia. Because that’s what it is.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It’s the same thickness.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Don’t you want something that feels good like a finger? You gotta go thicker then.

SL: That’s a good point. That’s a good point. Do you want a dull knife or do you want a finger.

TB: [affirmative noise] Yeah, what feels good to your body?

SL: [affirmative noise] Anyway I want to take another break…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: When we come back Todd I want to talk about some of the heavier procedures that you’re, that you advocate being female circumcision, sub, and a number of other things. Anyway, this is Creature of Habit by Swearing at Motorist.

     (song plays)

SL: Alright we’re back. Todd, one of the, let’s start with female circumcision, let me ask you first, what is that?

TB: Female circumcision is one of several things. The circumcise literally means to remove around, but it doesn’t say around what. That’s the actual meaning of the word. In the female it could be remove around the vulva, anything in the vulva area you can remove partial or complete the hood, the inner labia, the outer labia if you wanted to, generally it means anything to do with the hood or the inner labia in most contexts. Some people will include the removal of the clitoris itself in that context, but that’s incorrect, that’s a clitorodectomy.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: The anti-female circumcision groups try to persuade the gullible that female circumcision is truly labial occlusion which is actually really rare but what labial occlusion is they remove the inner labia, the hood, the external clitoris and almost all of the outer labia and sew up the remainder leaving a very small menstrual and urinary opening.

SL: Essentially it’s a total genital amputation.

TB: Essentially yeah, external genital amputation. And they try to call it female circumcision and that’s not true at all. Female circumcision in it’s true sense like I said is partial or complete removal of the hood and or the inner labia or any portion thereof.

SL: And I think that you know people especially in this scene don’t realize how incredibly common it is. Last week, Mc, not last week about a month ago, McLean’s which is Canada’s equivalent to Time magazine had a cover article on female circumcision as done by plastic surgeons here on women in the west and spoke very positively about it.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: I think Cosmo has done the same as have any number of other magazines I mean this isn’t, you know this isn’t a far out thing, I mean a lot of people, even a lot of real legitimate doctors have stood behind this.

TB: There are very legitimate reasons to have it done. First off you’re, why does a girl get a boob job or a breast reduction? Enhancement or reduction, because they’re not comfortable with how their body’s are shaped, they want to be shaped like this. They like it. Why shouldn’t someone have power over how their genitals look or respond. We’re under the illusion that because it’s down there on a woman’s body it automatically feels good. Well this is simply not true. Inner labia or hood can actually feel better than the clitoris but they can also feel very bad to touch. Or they could actually feel nothing at all. So if something is feeling bad to touch down there or doesn’t feel a thing why do you want it on your body, you don’t. And you’re better off to remove it or if you don’t like the way it looks, it grosses you out, everyone has a different shape of what they want to look like, and we as adults should have the right to choose that and in the United States there are some places that do offer it as labiaplasty, most of them are not very good even plastic surgeons they absolutely suck, they’re horrible. They’re very expensive and most of them won’t touch you for fear of medical malpractice lawsuits. They are afraid they’ll lose their medical license. It’s a very very touchy subject here in the US, it’s really really scary because some, then I’ve known girls who’ve actually taken matters into their own hands and cut it off with scissors and stuff like this and have tremendous problems from it. But done right it can be a very very enhancing procedure, and can actually cause tremendous increase in sexual sensation.

SL: [affirmative noise] Now the footage that I’ve seen it’s a very bloody procedure when you’re talking about the deeper removals that are fairly complete.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Is it a dangerous procedure?

TB: Anytime you’re dealing with a loss of blood you’re dealing with a potential shock. And when you’re dealing with potential shock you’re dealing with potential death. What most people don’t understand I, while we’re speaking of this it boggles my mind I do not know of, personally, any place I’ve ever been that does piercings, that does tattoos that has a refrigerator with some orange juice and some cookies and some bananas on hand for when people have a blood sugar reaction. They didn’t even ask them if they’ve eaten. They don’t. It goes right over their head. And then people pass out on the floor and think, “Oh gee it was so painful.” It had nothing to do with the pain, they didn’t eat and they didn’t take care of their self and they think it’s like when they get their haircut and have a blood sugar reaction and pass out. It has nothing to do with pain, it has to do with blood sugar reaction and if you I mean you could go into epileptic shock and seizure and death from this and people just don’t, don’t take care of business, and it’s really really sad. But shock is very very easy to prevent it’s a matter of having enough blood sugar in your systems when the brain reacts to this injury it reaches for its food which is blood sugar. So it can assimilate the new reactions that it’s having, “Oh my god somebody’s’ cutting my pussy. Oh my god somebody’s cutting my dick. Oh my god this is happening to me.” And you don’t go into shock. It’s quite simple.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: You have enough blankets on hand, if you’re doing something major you really want to have an IV drip on hand, depending on what you’re doing but anybody that does any type of body mod that doesn’t have something as simple as orange juice and bananas on hand shouldn’t be in the business.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And that’s almost everybody out there.

SL: [affirmative noise] Like we mentioned before, most piercers work in a pretty clinical and impersonal environment if I remember the, some of the photos of the procedures that we’re talking about here, you know there’s a couple naked girls, there’s a bed, there’s some ropes, um what sort of situation are these procedures done in?

TB: They’re done in a home studio. Right in a bed.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: What’s the difference in a hospital bed or the bed in your house? It’s a bed…

SL: Yeah.

TB: A bed’s a bed’s a bed.

SL: What I’m asking too is it, is it a scene? Is it, what, you know what relationship is there? I mean is it?

TB: Most people come here because they don’t want to be in a clinical environment where they’re seeking, they have enough intelligence to realize, see there’s more to piercing than what the average piercing store is offering and they travel from all over the world for this different type of feature.

SL: Yeah, it’s true.

TB: They spend thousands of dollars to get here for a hundred dollar piercing.

SL: [affirmative noise] No, it’s true as much as…

TB: Which has a lot to do with what everybody else is doing, if I’m getting all these people from all over the world spending thousands of dollars to come here to get a hundred dollar piercing…

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: I mean that’s pretty pathetic on everybody else’s end. Cause they’re so primitive. But good for me bad for them I guess. But…

SL: Yeah, no its…

TB: Piercings as mentioned to me are sexual. Do I want to have sex in a doctor’s office? Well probably not unless you’re really into the medical aspect and that turns you on. You’re probably not going to get turned on by this real clinical thing. Most people want to have their piercings, in my experience, be a very intimate memorable and sexual experience to them. It has nothing to do with whether they’re having sex with me, I’m just the mode of how they achieve this inner sexual experience.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: Okay? I’m just the, the doctor of the moment that allows it to happen for them. And they’d much rather be in that type of environment. I’ve been requested to do many types of SM scenes with piercings and that sort of thing with ropes and flogging and all that and it’s really not that uncommon. As we mentioned earlier, this is where piercings came from. The leather gay SM movement. It’s where it came from, what it’s all about.

SL: Let me ask you, do you think it’s healthier to do a piercing in that type of environment. Healthier on a psychological level?

TB: Absolutely, tremendously, it’s tremendously freeing. It means you appreciate what you’re doing.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It means that you are doing it for yourself for your innermost gain, not because my buddy got it and I thought it was cool.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: It’s, it’s important to you.

SL: Right.

TB: It’s real.

SL: Right. Alright, I’ll ask you next about subincision. Subincision I guess is sort of a, certainly a male…

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Anlagen to circumcision, or splitting of the hood.

TB: In some aspects yeah.

SL: Now, first you did that on yourself and we’ve all read the various experiences on BME and in the PFIQ article.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Now, when I’ve seen the footage that you, of yours that you’ve done, it doesn’t look like they’re marked it’s just a quick cut it and they seem to turn out perfectly, is, what’s the procedure like? Is it simple? Is it you know, or is there more to it that I’m not seeing?

TB: Well, it’s simple for me but it’s, if you have an 8 year old who’s a musical prodigy, she or he will sit down and go, “Well it’s really easy why can’t you do it?” It’s simple for me but that doesn’t mean it’s simple for someone else.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: As you mentioned on the answer page of BME, there’s a line that go down the body, that separates everything, all you’ve got to do is follow the line. It’s either on center or off center, but it gives you a line.

SL: So you don’t have to draw a line cause it’s already there.

TB: Bingo.

SL: [laugh] Good enough.

TB: [laugh]

SL: Yeah, I guess that’s true. I want to ask you, you’ve had a couple funny procedures come to you. One of them is this strip circumcision.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Tell me about, what was that and why did the guy want it done?

TB: Well, he was very erotisized, it took me forever to get this guy to tell me this, but he was very erotisized about the concept of having a scar on his penis from his first sexual experience, cause the girl was licking his newly circumcised penis as a teenager and orgasming from it. And that was, he was almost 70 years old and evidently this had stuck in his mind as the best or one of the best sexual experiences he’d had and he wanted to recreate this by having the scar on his penis. And that was his whole concept, literally scarification of the penis.

SL: And…

TB: It was quite interesting I thought.

SL: [affirmative noise] And he was an older guy.

TB: He was almost 70 years old, he was like 67 years old when he came here.

SL: [affirmative noise] And you’ve had, well I don’t even know how much I want to talk about her cause it will just result in this slew of e-mails to both me and you but some of your, you know this I think that 70 year old guy was you know real solid and sane, but not all your clients have been quite so easy to deal with.

TB: No. I’ve had a few people be rather on the very definite end of insane, to where you wonder how they were even let out of the funny farm. And that particular person you’re alluding to actually hasn’t been the only one. That one just got very deep under my skin shall we say. But there’s, I’ve come to the conclusion that there’s a very significant amount of people which the medical professionals have only seen the very worse end of this that are into modification of the body that aren’t quite all there in their head. Which is really scary, to me, or really sad. And yeah, I certainly got a loo loo for one of those.

SL: [affirmative noise] Now you had, you were fairly deeply involved with at least this one.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Do you think that sort of your eagerness to do these procedures, and maybe, maybe because of your own sexual excitement attached to them sort of sometimes makes you miss some of the other person’s problems and maybe blinds you to a reason why maybe you shouldn’t be working on them?

TB: That hits very close to the truth. Let me give an analogy in your own life. Let’s go back to where you got your first computer and were first getting into mods and now today you’ve got zillions of subscriptions you’re it as far as on the Internet if anybody wants to do anything with piercings your it. You are it Shannon.

SL: [affirmative noise] Yeah.

TB: And have been it for a long time. But let’s just say back then when you had this inkling of an idea, okay someone spelled out, “Gee if you do this for me I can do that for you and make you do that tomorrow.”

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: You’d want that to happen.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And you’d believe their story. If it sounded reasonable. And that’s exactly what happened with this girl.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: She gave me a story that I wanted to believe in, that sounded reasonable to me and because I’m open to other types of cultural things and other types of sexuality I gave her the benefit of the, of the doubt.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And it didn’t occur to me that someone would invent literally their entire life story, their friends, their family everything in detail.

SL: Yeah, I’m hoping that at least a few of the people who are listening to this know who we are talking about or else this is just a big in joke, so we won’t get, I don’t think we’ll go into it anymore.

TB: Right.

SL: Anyway I’m going to play one more song, and when we come back I want to talk to Todd about some of his new plans which are for some of you, will hopefully be very exciting and maybe you can do some fun stuff with Todd. Anyway this is Fred Lane, this just got re-released on CD, this is absolute insanity, this is The Man with The Fold Back Ears.

     (song plays)

SL: Alright that was some crazy stuff we just listened to. Anyway, you know there are porn stars with nipple piercings there are porn stars with a hood piercing, but there’s not really, there’s not really much of a pierced porn market. There’s O-Pearl and that whole Creative Art Collective or something like that.

TB: In Germany, near Frankfurt.

SL: Somewhere in Europe you know but that’s a very specific type of fetishy pornography.

TB: [affirmative noise]

SL: Now Todd you’ve invested a lot of money in a new sort of both business and personal venture. You want to tell us a bit about that and maybe how some of the people listening if they’re so inclined can get involved in it?

TB: [affirmative noise] Well I have had the idea for quite a few years now to start doing pierced pornos. Which the pornography market first off they don’t want their girls pierced that much. They’ll put up with a couple of little things and it takes under normal techniques, years to obtain any type of amount of and gauge and thousands and thousands of dollars, because most people don’t have it, and in fact I was trying to do this earlier and it finally dawned on me that the only way I’m going to be able to do this is to literally do the modifications free and bring girls out and let them live in my estate that I just bought, I just bought a 3 acre estate with a very very large house and pool and whatnot and we’ll be remodeling it making it extremely large but so I’m going to be bringing girls from all over the world at my expense to stay for three months at my estate with free mods, but they have to have sex with me and other girls and other guys on film.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: And we’ll be videoing this and hopefully marketing this which it will take some time to get out but I think that’s the only way to get really intense mods, I don’t know of anybody else who can literally sit and do 20-30-40 pussy rings or dick rings at one sitting and heal them in fuckable in three weeks besides myself.

SL: [affirmative noise]

TB: They don’t have the techniques, and people I tell them that and they can’t even believe I’m doing one 6 ga ring in three weeks and healing it. But that’s what I can do. And so if you’re cute and you’re female, or if you’re a guy let me know.

SL: They can contact you through www.toddbertrang.com there’ll be a link obviously with this as well so they can just click over onto it. And I guess what they should, what should e-mail you a picture of themselves.

TB: Yup e-mail me tell me their interests, it’s going to be extreme, I don’t want one or two piercings, you want a hood piercing that’s not enough.

SL: This is a lifestyle change you better be into it and…

TB: Yeah you better be into it you’re going to walk away with 20-50 piercings or a circumcision some radical stuff.

SL: [affirmative noise] And if you’re into it it’d be a lot of fun.

TB: And if you’re female, you’ll be living on my estate for three months and you better be ready to prove to me that you’re not a nut like the one I got [laugh].

SL: [laugh]

TB: Before, I don’t need that again.

SL: Alright well Todd, I want to thank you for talking to us today, I want to thank you for sort of bravely standing forward and saying what you know piercing is really about to you and I think to an awful lot of other people and I hope the movie project goes well and I wish you the best of luck on Todd and thanks for talking to us.

TB: Thanks I hope to be back again one day.

SL: Excellent

     (song plays)


.

Blair: Revisiting BMEradio [The Publisher’s Ring]


Blair: Revisiting BMEradio

I finally got around to dusting off some of the old BMEradio files — I hope there are at least a few people reading this who remember when it first aired, but since many do not, I figured it was about time to put it into the permanent BME archives.

First of all, you can download this interview as an MP3 file if you’d prefer by clicking here. Please realize that’s a 25 meg file, and bandwidth costs money — if you enjoy listening to it, consider donating pictures or stories to BME in return (or money). I’ll also mention that it’s totally cool by me if people insert that into file sharing applications or post it on their own web sites as well, as long as it is not altered.

Below — thanks to Vanilla — we have a transcript of the interview (now almost five years out of date I think, keep that in mind) we did with Blair (iam). I know that BME has many hearing impaired readers who have been waiting for this to be added for a very long time (I’ll add more as time permits). Below the interview is some info on where BMEradio is evolving this year:


Shannon Larratt: Alright welcome back everyone I’m Shannon Larratt you’re tuned into BME Radio we’re here in the brand new BME Radio studio with Blair from Tattorama in Toronto. Also here we’ve got Phil Barbosa one of BME’s resident photographers who’s got extensive work done by Blair and we’ll be talking to him a little later about that. While you’re listening to this you can zip on over to byblair.com to see a little bit of Blair’s work. Although if you’ve been reading BME for a while you’ve certainly seen his piercing, scarification work, implants, and subincisions lots of times before. Blair, as somebody who’s done all of these modifications as well as having dabbled in tattooing, what, what would you consider your title to be?

Blair: Um, you know what? I would just have to say probably just artist.

SL: Just artist?

B: Keep it simple. I think so yeah, because I think I’ve spread myself so much on so many different levels, I think at least I mean doing tattooing and doing scarification, doing branding, doing piercing and doing other different types of modifications. Um, you know I’ve done wood burning, and I’ve built waterfalls and things so to me I don’t see much of a difference in building a waterfall and working on a person it’s just a different art form.

SL: So you’re not even just a body artist, you’re an – artist.

B: Yeah, I think I feel more, more like that now, especially. Maybe a few years ago I might have maybe uh, been a bit more you know picky about what I called myself.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Even then, back years ago when we first did stuff for the BME, I couldn’t really classify myself very much. [laugh]

SL: I think tattoo artists especially are real, real adamant you know that you know you pick an art form and you stick to it and you know you get real good at that, you don’t feel that you know you’re spreading yourself too thin, or?

B: You know what, I tell my customers that quite a bit especially when it comes to, um they say that’s all you do is, is you know piercing, you don’t do tattoo and I think honestly if you’re going to be really good at something you should be quite, quite picky about it you should you know focus on one thing. But I think, um you know I’ve mostly focused on body piercing like you know navels and tongues and eyebrows and different genital piercings and stuff but I mean after you’ve done those, those modifications for so long it’s kind of like a base. You know, and the other things start to become more, more like hobbies. And there’s nothing more creative and nothing more, how would you say, at least I think there’s nothing more special than having a hobby that you really care for and I think navel, like the navel piercing and all the eyebrows and all the other kind of stuff that I think 99.9% of the piercers do for a living, it starts to become a little bit like work. You know, you can’t, I mean I must admit I love my job it’s incredible but after a while you know, you must admit it’s a little bit like work. It’s a good work I must admit but it’s not as exciting as like building a new waterfall and having an incredible idea in your brain and actually turning it into something or spending like two or, two hours on drawing the most amazing brand and think like, “Man I’m going to pull this off and it’s gonna look sweet.” So, to me, it’s just art. [laughs]

SL: So is a lot of it taking, you know taking sort of an idea and realizing it? That’s the…

B: Absolutely. Especially with branding, you know. You know you spend a lot of time drawing a branding and especially I think to be a true artist for branding you have to really envision what it’s going to look like you know, three weeks from then you know. And I think that takes a lot of skill to understand how the skin works and what it does when you burn the skin and implant it in such a way, so I think um yeah, I don’t know well…

SL: Yeah, well we’ve got, actually we’ve got some exciting branding stuff coming up from Blair. We’re going to play one song for you then we’ll let you know what the big secret is.

[song]

SL: Alright, now here’s where things get pretty exciting for you. BME and Blair are co-sponsoring a “Best Brand in the World” design contest. The way it works is you come up with a brand that you’d like to have, I mean no limits, no limits at all, it can be as big, or as complicated as you want. The only deal is, you obviously you gotta be 18. But the only real deal is that you have to be willing to actually get it. BME and Blair will pick the best 10 entries and then the actual best one will be flown to Toronto to have the brand done and this is all for free. All you have to do is e-mail a sketch of your idea to BME and in one month we’ll announce the finalists and then a week later the winner. Blair, what made you want to do this contest?

B: [laughs] Um, I just love branding, you know. I love doing big pieces. I mean it’s like um, it’s very much like a canvas, you know you need to have something to work from. You know, if you don’t have something to work from then you don’t have any canvas.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: I think here in the city I mean there’s lots of people I can work on, there’s no question about it. I mean I have people coming from, flying from all different places and stuff, but I think there’s something special about somebody who really really wants it you know and willing to you know go out of their way a little bit to you know e-mail you, write a little thing about why they want to get branded, um I don’t know it’s very exciting to me. I can just imagine the person being so stoked you know to win this and to fly here and for me to see them in person and talk to them about it and actually see the end result, you know. I just think that’s really cool. Um, yeah, I just wanna do good work, you know, I wanna work on someone and I wanna have fun and I think um, somebody that’s really willing to uh you know go out of their way a little bit I think it would be really fun to work on them.

SL: [affirmative noise] Most people that come to you for branding have you know fairly small and simple ideas, or? What do people normally come for?

B: Um, I try not to really do a lot of work where there’s really a lot of simple ideas. If people, if someone desperately wants to get something quite simple, then, if I have time, then I’ll do it, but I think at this point in time I really try to um, [tsk] I guess you could say push my limits in terms of what people consider a traditional brand. Because I really think a lot of the people that brand out there are just doing really awful work it’s just really simple, it’s really crude, quite basic, and I think um, there’s so much potential out there for doing, you know amazing work, constant lines…

SL: Why do you think that is? Is it difficult to do this type of branding? I mean…

B: I think, even for myself, I’ve been branding for about, I don’t know how many years, maybe four or five years, or longer…

SL: I think longer than that, yeah.

B: Yeah, and I think, I mean, when I first started things were quite simple because you know you’re brand new at it, you know. But just like any other art form you have to progress, you know, you can’t just do the same thing for so long, and I think I’m getting to the point really where I’m almost kind of picking and choosing how I’m going to do a design, um, I shouldn’t say I’m picking and choosing for them but um, if they come to me with a rough idea and I can probably do a very simple rough idea.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: But I prefer to sit down for a while and actually draw it in such a way that it takes a lot more skill.

SL: So, a person comes to you, we’ll I guess we’ll talk about the one you’re doing coming up here. A guy comes to you, wants an Astro Boy tattoo…

B: Sure.

SL: Gives you an Astro Boy pencil case, says I want it to look like this.

B: Or branding. Sorry, yeah.

SL: What are the steps in taking that pencil case and turning it into a branding?

B: Well, basically what I’ll do, is I’ll look at the design, I’ll think about where the person wants to get it and I’ll think about how big they want it to be. Branding is a lot similar to tattoo where you just can’t do the smallest thing, you know, because if the lines are too close, if they’re too close together they are going to bleed together in terms of like tattoo ink. In terms of branding it’s pretty much the same thing. If the lines are too close they’re going to breed, bleed. So what you have to do is you have to design it in such a way that, that when the whole thing expands you know after the thing’s completely finished then it’s going to expand and in such a way that it’s going to look like you want the end result to be. So…

SL: So kind of like if you’re going to make a complicated design out of cookie dough?

B: Kind of yeah, you really have to think about it ahead of time. Like, when I’m drawing it, I’m looking at it in the future, even though I’m, the drawing looks sometimes nothing even close to what the person wants.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Like the barbed wire I showed you today, it’s quite a simple design, but the end result is definitely going to look like bobbed wire, or barbed wire. [laughs] Bob wire. Yeah.

SL: And, then the way that the person treats it, presumably during the healing process makes a great deal of difference as well?

B: Um, sometimes yeah. I think to some degree a lot of it has to do with genetics. You know, either you’re a person who has really good keloid skin, tends to scar quite easily or sometimes you don’t. And I think it doesn’t necessarily have to do with your skin colour. I mean, technically it does. Some people have more melatonin than other people, but I’ve seen white people with amazingly raised keloid skin and I’ve seen black people who raise quite flat. Or not raise at all sometimes. You know.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: But the one thing that I do guarantee is that um, the width of it and the design is going to look, it’s going to look amazing, whether it keloids and raises or not is something quite different. You know, it’s something that is out of my control and I put into your body’s control. Um, there are some things you can do, like you can pick at it and you can irritate it and you can do numerous things and I think that definitely will increase your chances of getting scar tissue, but doesn’t necessarily mean you’re going to end up with a raised keloid scar but you will have guaranteed a permanent scar and it will be quite visible, it’s something you’ll always be able to see, even if it’s flat. So, I think it’s kind of an old misconception of um you know the guy did really shitty work or something like that because it ended up being quite flat.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: And I think, no matter who’s going to do the work, if it’s done quite well – on some people it’s always going to end up flat. And I think, um, people just have to, especially branders have to really um, learn to understand uh, you know what, what they can expect from their brand. You know, I think they have to just understand that they can do the full 100% but I think a certain percentage of it is not even up to the person who’s getting it, it’s up to the person’s, you know, genetics.

SL: [affirmative noises]

B: So, and I think once you understand that I think um, you know you just kind of realize that I did my best and that’s all there is to it. The rest is just up to nature.

SL: Right. Now, about, what was it, two years ago? You picked up a cautery-branding unit.

B: Yeah.

SL: And you did a little bit of it. But even for your detailed work you’re still largely doing strike branding. Um, you don’t find that the cautery gives you more freedom and that you can do just as much with strike branding?

B: I think the way that I brand for sure, there’s not much difference. I think um, you know there’s something really nice about holding a paintbrush in your hand. I mean, I’m really, I wouldn’t consider myself a painter at all. I don’t paint much other than you know, the walls of my apartment occasionally, but I, to me, holding my tool is very similar to holding a paintbrush and having to re-dip in the paint again, instead I have to relight, you know reheat the iron up. Um, and I think the way I brand I do like multiple strikes whereas a lot of branders, they’re just, I guess they’re quite new at it, they just kind of hold their breath and go, “Oh my God, one quick shot, that’s it.” And you know, I think that’s just not realistic, so I think, as for the cautery unit it takes a lot of the um, it takes a certain feel away from it you know, it’s like um, it’s like having a paintbrush and painting as opposed to doing it on the computer with Photoshop. I don’t think one’s any better than the other but I think, um for me there’s a certain, I can’t explain it. There’s a nice feel to it, I always, for years I’ve always considered branding very much like painting.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: You know, I hold that thing in my hand and it’s just like these nice brush strokes you know, it’s kind of like that.

SL: Well I think overall you, you know, you’ve made similar decisions before like, you know you drove a motorcycle rather than a car.

B: Yeah, little skateboard [laugh] instead of a anything else [laugh]. Yeah.

SL: Um, we’re going to play another song and when we come back we’ll talk about some of Blair’s traveling in Borneo and Mexico and collecting of a variety of indigenous jewellery.

[song]

SL: Alright, Blair you just got back from your second trip to Mexico now that was more of a recreational trip than a body oriented trip. What were you doing down there?

B: [laugh] Well basically I wanted to tour a little bit through Mexico and um, and see some of the Mayan temples I also wanted to see Mexico city cause largest city in the world. I love chaos, you know I love big big cities, it’s amazing how they function you know, it’s incredible.

SL: Are there studios down there?

B: I saw a few studios down there.

SL: What were they like?

B: Their standards are a lot different.

SL: Yeah.

B: Definitely a lot lower. I mean I shouldn’t really say that but, the shops I saw, the standards were quite low. That’s all I’m going to say, it’s just a different way of thinking you know.

SL: But mostly you were surfin’.

B: Mostly I was surfing, yeah. That was the thing. Yeah, I met some amazing people down there and I surfed. You know I have to say one thing, I saw this tattoo shop down there that just scared me. I was visiting, I had a card on me and I thought, oh wow how’s it going you know, can I have one of your cards? He was tattooing this guy he pretty much just opened the counter door with his bloody gloves, grabbed the business card and dropped it in my hand and I just picked it up with my fingers and just dropped my card and thought oh my god these people, I felt so bad that so many people are being cross contaminated potentially. And not even knowing anything about it. That’s what I mean. Standards are a lot lower, that would be completely unacceptable in Canada. I’m sure it’s unacceptable anywhere.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Anyways, surfing is good! [laughs]

SL: [laughs]

Phillip Barbosa: [laughs]

SL: You’re just as recreational but more oriented to this trip. You recently got back from Borneo.

B: Right, yeah. It was amazing.

SL: Now, you went over with Erica Skadsen of Organic and a number of other people.

B: Yeah, it was amazing, you know. I went to um, to Borneo and I stayed with the Iban tribe and the Kayan tribe.

SL: How, how do you get there?

B: I was lucky enough to meet Erica a few years ago, you know ordering jewellery from her. She’s such an amazing person. She invited me to go and I gladly went. I’ve always wanted to go you know into the jungle and you know Borneo, I remember liking Borneo since I was a kid and just the thought of going there was pretty exciting. I mean, in order to get to the jungle you know what it’s, I think I was quite lucky. I think when I went with Erica I learned a lot about how to travel in those kind of um, how would you say, I don’t know in that kind of situation you know like not speaking the language, learning how to catch boats, learning how to…

SL: Okay so what happens, you I mean I assume there’s a major airport somewhere in Borneo, or nearby?

B: Yup, uh, yeah there’s a major, one major, I’m sure there’s probably a few, I’m sure there’s one in maybe uh Brunei, and there’s probably one in um, Indonesia.

SL: So you land there then you catch a long boat up the river or what happens?

B: Well, what we did was we ended up um, we flew into there, it took like, I think all together we spent about for me I think it was thirty something hours maybe thirty-four hours traveling getting to where we were going and basically we flew into Kuching City and then from there I think it was a twelve hour bus ride and then from there it was like a five hour river boat ride and um, it was amazing.

SL: When you show up at tribal longhouses are you a tourist, I mean what do they think of you?

B: I think um, because my ears are stretched, and because I’m tattooed and because I think those people don’t really see that many white folks you know I think there are tourists and that, that go up there, but I think that some of the places that I went to I don’t think they saw you know tourists and it’s such a long long time so I think it probably happens maybe you know maybe a few times a year. There was one longhouse we stayed at and it was, it was in kind of more closer to a major town four hours away from the other longhouse that I went to and they had like a little guest book and I think lots of tourists went there for sure. But I think um…

SL: But not many of them would actually stay there?

B: Most of them I think wouldn’t stay there.

SL: I mean it’s not like a longhouse takes visa right?

B: No, nothing like, it’s a bit different than that. [laughs]

SL: [laughs] But when you stay there how do you eat, where do you sleep?

B: Well I’m vegan so it was really hard, I had to bring so many vitamins and anytime I found something like you know any kind of nuts or anything I made sure I grabbed them. You know, where we went to we were pretty welcomed because, I think Erica was corresponding with one of them for such a long time you know with letters and stuff and man, they don’t get half of their mail, so it’s a hit and miss whether they’re going to receive it or not. I’ve sent packages and stuff there and I know they haven’t received it. Um, but uh, they, we made kind of rough arrangements that we’d show up around this time and uh, we went there and we were just welcomed immediately and I think it really helped that we were tattooed and pierced and I think, I can’t explain it, I just kind of fit right in there. I mean the life there is completely different, I found that a lot easier to adjust to.

SL: Are they living like a picture book tribal life, or what’s it like?

B: Um well there’s no telephones…there’s no hot water.

SL: What do they spend an average day doing?

B: You know they make things like mats and they do, they make um I mean they farm in the paddy fields, they go into the jungle and they hunt for um, pig – babi, and they um. Man, they do a lot of hunting um, they you know they fish in the rivers and stuff. Sometimes they use this poison root you know, and um it helps the, it’s hard to explain, I think what it does is it deoxygenates the water so the fish get intoxicated and they start floating up and you have to get them with spears and you have to get them with nets. So they’re always busy mostly getting food.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: That’s the main thing. Without food you don’t really have very much. I think a lot of the men end up working in logging camps and possibly in oilrigs and stuff. And all the older men and all the children stay at home.

SL: Right.

B: Well, I stayed at like a I think all together, I stayed in f…six different villages. Some was for like five days some was like for two days some was for, I think the longest might have been for seven days in one place. And they were all in different parts. And some places were probably close to like, maybe sixteen hours away from anywhere.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: You know, if you needed a hospital you’d be pretty far to get to that, that’s for sure. Uh, and other places, were not that far off because the, a lot of the Iban and the Kayan and Punan and all the other tribes, they’re all living all around the whole island, you know so some are close to cities and some are extremely far away. So, yeah, it was good. I can’t explain it. It was so, there was so much.

[telephone ringing]

B: [laughs]

SL: Well, that’s annoying, uh we’ve got a phone ringing in the background that we’ll just ignore, we’ll let Phil pick it up and tell them to call back later.

B: Yeah, I mean there was so much to know and there was so much that I learned, and I wouldn’t really want to be giving people directions on how to get there because I think that would probably be the worst thing for these people. So, but it was a good adventure and it was really, uh, really quite a trek through the jungle. It was good, I mean the coolest thing I did, I think was, was fishing in the river using that root you know, I didn’t even eat the fish because I’m vegan but these people are giving you everything. They’re giving you sleep, they’re giving you food, you know they’re giving you everything so the least I could do was at least you know catch food for them. Very minimal.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Um, it was good. A good experience.

SL: And then right after that you did about the exact opposite and headed over to Japan.

B: Yeah, that was a, that’s where I had culture shock. Because I’d been in the jungle for, by that point, I think close to I think maybe sixteen days, was the longest time I think I spent in there and to go from that I went to um, a friend of a friends place and they were quite rich. And with a maid and everything and I was in complete culture shock, I didn’t know what to do. I was like I was afraid to like mess up the bathroom [laugh]. I mean, from living, from living in the interior and going to the washroom anywhere you please or in like um little squats where you have to, you know you get the bucket of water to flush it down into the river. Going from that to like every faucet was finely polished and the maid would make absolutely anything you wanted, I felt so much closer to the maid than I did to the people I was staying with [laugh]. It was good.

SL: [laugh]

B: But it was a big culture shock.

SL: Alright, we’re gonna play a little more music. I’m going to figure out what that phone call was and when we get back we’ll talk about subincisions and implants and if you thought the scarification was scary now’s when you should hit stop on your Real Audio Player and if not you’re gonna find out some stuff you didn’t know.

[song]

SL: Alright, well that goes on for a long long time so we’re gonna, we’re gonna break back into talking. So Blair, one of the more hardcore and maybe even controversial pieces of work that you do is subincision. What exactly is that?

B: Well, basically subincision is when you, you basically cut the urethra open so that it’s exposed and then you…

SL: Hold on a sec, we’ve actually, we’ve got Phil here, and you’ve actually done one on Phil. I’ll direct this question to you, why in the world would someone want to do such a thing?

PB: Well for me it was always just something interest me the aesthetic of it, for one, it adds girth, like visually, it just, the whole esthetic idea of a subincision appealed to me and that’s why I did it and after seeing Jay interview Jay subincision, I think it was on BME that always interested me, like just from looking at it, it looked like the neatest thing and the idea of being able to adorn it differently by piercing it down the sides of the ridges, and the idea of having a whole other surface that’s sensitive all of a sudden. Where before you just had the base of the shaft of your penis and for most people it’s rather callous and numb and all of a sudden you cut it open and it’s brand new sensations in a totally different world, when it comes to your sexual sensations or anything.

SL: Now, you know, the, I don’t want to embarrass your girlfriend too much but uh, just a little [laugh] does it work? I mean, it’s healed now are you happy with the results?

PB: I’m happy, um, from what I understand she’s happy. She didn’t have any real problems with it. She was actually there for the procedure. Funny little story, she was there before she was, she came with me just as a friend, and sat through the whole procedure, documented the whole procedure and weeks later we started dating, we finally did actually um, have sex it was a different experience. I mean, it wasn’t totally different than anything else she’s ever experienced. I mean, I have multiple genital piercings so that was different enough but um, I think just the, things like oral sex were different and from what I gathered, I was told everything was different yet at the same time strangely more comfortable.

SL: [affirmative noise] I think one of the things that Jay has always said is you know from a philosophical point of view one of the things a subincision does, is, because you urinate out of the base now it makes the penis nothing but a sexual organ. Uh, you know it loses all functional purpose other than that. Um, Blair, how would you, sort of in comparison to your regular clients, how would you characterize, who comes to you for a subincision?

B: Um, wow, that’s a tough one. You know, I’m really picky about who I work on and I think, you know because it’s a subincision, it’s such an extreme procedure I think that, I mean the people that I’ve worked on really are people who’ve pretty much tried to do it themselves you know. I consider myself somewhat like a facilitator you know I’m not sure if I would do a subincision on absolutely anybody. You know people have to understand the implications when they get a procedure like this it’s permanent I mean I’m sure you could probably go to a plastic surgeon and get it refixed.

SL: You can but it’s a mess afterwards.

B: Yeah, I mean you pretty much have to think that like it’s a permanent procedure the people that I’ve worked on pretty much of other tried to do it themselves were still absolutely convinced that this is what they were wanted that they were willing to you know make it you know a permanent a permanent you know thing. So, um, I mean I’ve, I’ve, man, the people I’ve worked on are so different like you know from photographers to computer um…

SL: And a real age range too, I mean Phil you’re what, twenty-two, yeah and…

B: Yeah, I think two people I worked on were twenty two be other two were like fifty and fifty-five or something and I think it, you know, I’ve had I can’t even like really characterize them because they’re all completely different it’s just like tattooing and it’s just like piercing and it’s just like everything else I’ve done there’s just such a wide range of people you can’t really. I mean one person was into fetish, and one person was not at all into fetish you know I mean you can’t really.

SL: Did fetish work it’s way into the procedure or?

B: Oh, absolutely not.

SL: And, I mean in his head, even if you actually didn’t do anything.

B: Uh, ooo, I don’t know that’d have to be his head, I don’t know. [laughs]

SL: Maybe you don’t want to know the answer to that one. [laughs]

B: No, I mean I try to I consider myself much like a facilitator in I draw lines on what I can what I will work on I think even you know Shannon that I’m probably a bit more conservative than a lot of people what you call cutters or something but I have limits I really prefer to work on body modifications that were traditionally done by the lay person. You know, subincision was traditionally done by aboriginals in Australia, pearling was traditionally done in Japan and all over Asia I’m told also in parts of Africa, um I mean there’s so many different types of body modifications out there but I really prefer to stick to those you know. But I tend to change it in such a way that it becomes very, like I’m very picky about procedures you know because you have to be very picky about cross contamination and sterilization and all that kind of stuff so.

SL: I’m assuming a subincision especially because you’re really opening the body up and there’s a lot of blood and…

B: Yeah, absolutely but it’s the same thing as doing a cutting on somebody’s arm or on their leg you have to be very meticulous about, you know not cross contaminating, or not infecting them or infecting your shop for that matter you know. So you have to be very picky about that so I kind of take what I see as being traditional body modifications and taking the modern tools and the modern techniques that we have and using it you know to its advantage you know. But I think there’s a limit you know people have called me wanting the utmost extreme different types of body modifications and I know from what I believe you know from human anatomy that there are limits you know and as much as to see people on the BME with pretty extreme different body modifications as an artist I feel there are limits and I think I have safe limits.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: And I think if people you know if I don’t feel it’s very safe and I don’t feel that they are suited to such a procedure I gladly turn them down I’ve had no problems with that at all. And I think, um it is a kind of weird procedure you know because it’s something that technically a physician can’t do I mean. Well I shouldn’t say technically a physician can’t do but I mean a physician’s not licensed to do a subincision. So I think for me being a lay-person.

SL: I think doctors, yeah they’re very restricted in the type of procedure they do.

B: Exactly. So I think I have to be very picky on who I’m going to work on you know.

SL: [affirmative noise] Now, you know, I don’t know, which is trickier but you’re also, you’ve also done a lot of genital implant work.

B: [affirmative noise]

SL: Um, now you’re tools have sort of evolved over time, your procedure has changed. You want to talk about what you were doing first and then how it sort of changed into the way it is now? You know scalpel versus needle and…

B: Yeah, I think I mean when I used to do pearling I used to use, traditional needle and stretch and taper and now it’s worked ‘til like scalpel. And now it’s worked to, and you know different tools for a basically creating pocketing and um it’s still something that’s still new for me and I still have to learn to work with these crazy tools with my friend Phil over here. [laugh] But I think, um yeah it’s evolved, I mean everything has to evolve. I think when you find something you when find a new technique and I think because you’re working on a human being that you have to learn to make things better you have to learn to make things safer, you have to make things more efficient it’s not like you know carving wood, you kinda if you’re happy with it you stick with your old methods. I think…

SL: The first time, or the first couple times are inherently you know they’re experiments, I mean, you know you can do as much research but I mean, Phil, how do you, how do you feel about knowing that you know this procedure that’s being done on you, it’s the first time it’s been done and you know, who really knows how it’s going to turn out and…

PB: I don’t know, I getting worked on by Blair for so many years, I just know that, I mean he’s a solid practitioner I guess or artist if I can call him that, like just procedure wise, bedside manner everything, and he knows his stuff it’s not something I’m concerned about that it’s you know I’m going to walk away being all mutilated or anything like that. Like obviously if he has a doubt in his mind as far as the procedure goes or the way this is going to be done it’s just not gonna happen. I’m, over the years of getting worked on I’m more than happy to put my trust into Blair’s hands as are most of his other clients I mean I’ve met other people that Blair’s done work on and they won’t let anybody else touch them, like piercing anything.

SL: Well, I think Blair’s know that if he needs to make a judgment call on a procedure he’s usually makes the judgment call on the conservative side.

B: Quite conservative side. [laugh] Yeah absolutely.

SL: I mean, even though, even though I think people look at these procedures and really think they’re far out you know, weird stuff they’re actually still on the safer side of you know what people try.

B: Absolutely, I mean you can just imagine what it would have been like you know a hundred years ago doing a subincision in Australia. I mean can you imagine. I just I mean the, it must have been quite crude you know.

PB: All they had is a sharp rock.

B: Yeah.

SL: I think that’s important to point out too, that all these procedures have, you know they’ve been done basically by field medics. You know.

B: Absolutely.

SL: You know, with a real minimum of precautions that we have access to.

B: Yeah. I don’t doubt that they really, they knew which herbs to use for this and which herbs to use for that but I mean the standards were quite different you know and I also think they’re immune systems were probably quite, uh, they’d probably be a lot more immune to bacterial infections because they were living so close to the earth. Where we’re living in a quite sterile environment.

SL: And I think, I think they probably had less bacteria to deal with they don’t have, you know, the super bacteria that we’ve you know, evolved in the west through constant use of antibiotics.

B: Yes, absolutely.

PB: I think they do it the same way so many times over and over that they’ve just understood a very specific way of doing it. I’ve read that the Australian, the way they used to do it was basically with a sharp rock and some thorns to hold you together but from years of doing it over over an over you know, and passing it on to lay people obviously they understood that this is exactly how it’s done and it’s done the same way over and over and over and it’s just refined over the years.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: [affirmative noise] Yup, I mean I had one client who was, he was HIV positive and my biggest concern with him was that my procedure was going to be the one thing that’s going to send him you know, over the edge. So, I um I sent him to a physician so he could get his um, viral loads and his um, and just basically see if everything’s alright with him and then the physician actually called me up in person and said that everything was fine with him in terms of his health and he’s willing, he felt that he’d be okay to do this procedure.

SL: This was a, what was the procedure?

B: This was a subincision.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Yeah. So, I mean, I had that concern…

SL: What was his motivation in doing it do you know?

B: You know, I think, I think he really had wanted it most of his life, and you know even before the BME site some of these people at least the two older people that I’d worked on had thought of this for close to twenty years. And I find that quite astounding and they never even knew of the aboriginals even doing this. In fact both of them, I gave them photocopies of this aboriginal of um, who had a subincision because they’d never saw it before, and and I think one guy had wanted it for so long and I guess he did find out he was HIV positive and he felt that at least before he goes he at least wants this.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: So, I was, you know, glad to oblige him for sure.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Providing everything was safe. That was my biggest concern of course.

SL: Now Blair, you’re not actually subincised yourself but, I mean you’re covered head to toe in a variety of modifications and when we come back we’ll ask you a bit about those.

[song]

SL: Alright, Blair, I’m looking at you and I’m seeing you’ve got your face tattooed you’ve got you know huge stretched ears, you’ve got uh tattoos on your hands you’ve got brandings on your forearms and I’m sure all sorts of stuff that I can’t see under your clothes.

B: Cutting on my stomach. Yeah.

SL: What, what are you trying to achieve with the changes you’ve made to your own body?

B: I think when I first started to get tattooed it was kind of like a like venting almost you know. I had a lot of troubles when I was a kid and a lot of um…

SL: How old are you now? I mean we look at magazine articles…

B: Today I’m twenty-five.

SL: It’s a different age every time.

B: Today I am twenty-five. [laugh]

SL: So you’re ageless. Alright so you’re having trouble as a kid and sort of expressing that through tattooing.

B: It’s amazing, it’s and amazing I mean to physically put on your body permanently I think is incredible you know. I think it has a certain symbolic meaning that you can’t really do anywhere else. I mean you can’t, you can paint on a canvas, but it’s never quite the same as when you actually put it on your body. So that’s how I basically got started. And I think you know I got into piercing and I found that so incredible and it really taught me a lot about myself and a lot about you know healing in general you know. But I think now I’ve changed so much I’ve grown so much, and also from working in the industry for so long I think really I look at it like, one big canvas. And I don’t now, when I get a tattoo, I don’t really think about the whole meaning and the whole symbolic you know meaning behind all of that because I think I got my shit together, I know exactly who I am, I know exactly what I want, in life and I know that I don’t necessarily need to put it on my body you know basically I’d like to look at myself when I’m finished and see one big work of art you know, I want to see the bottom half of my tattoo, like from my waist down, I wanna see it like one simple tattoo and I wanna see the top half one simple tattoo. So basically I’ll have two tattoos in my body with exception of my chin and um, my hands are I guess a little bit different than the rest. They’re like, um, I guess, what are they? Little patterns.

SL: We’ll get Phil to snap some photos too.

B: Yeah. But that’s basically how I feel and a lot of the spiritual stuff that meant so much to me still do but they’re basically being covered over just for art.

SL: You’re back piece is a tree of life, is that, is there spiritual meaning there or is it more of an esthetic statement?

B: Well I would say it’s definitely a spiritual statement but it’s so esthetically pleasing, you know it’s like a Tibetan style tree with Tibetan mountains and water and I don’t know, it’s just beautiful to me. There’s nothing, I guess, what I really wanted on my back was like a little vision of paradise.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: Life’s a bit crazy you know, as much as I like the chaos, there’s nothing nicer than simplicity and nothing is as nice as nature.

SL: Is that why you’re starting this new business, building waterfalls?

B: Yeah, it’s just a hobby. You know, I really like, I mean waterfalls is such an amazing medium. You know you think of a frame that you’re going to build out of concrete or stone, or out of whatever you choose to make it out of, and then you basically build from then on up. You know, what you want the structure to be, where the water is going to come from and you can kind of bend it and manipulate it in such a way that aesthetically looks pleasing but I guess more importantly it’s got to sound right. You know, so you put that all together in one big package and it’s just it’s incredible. I’m not, I don’t really have a lot of time to do artwork all that much but when I do, I tend to get completely consumed in it so if I start a project like a waterfall I pretty much go straight to the shop, I pierce, I work on everybody, I leave, I go straight home and I just get obsessed with my project until two weeks later, three weeks later it’s completely finished and it’s like, “Whooah.” What an amazing job. And I look at it and I’m just glowing, you know. And then, I don’t know, that’s it. It’s cool. Maybe that’s what art should be about.

SL: [affirmative noise] Now, let me ask you, you’re brandings that are on your forearms and the scarification that is on your stomach. Was that a venting process or why did you get those or was that sort of just learning to brand and…practicing?

B: Um, I think it was a bit of both you know. I don’t really feel like I actually had to try to learn much of anything. I’m lucky I guess, because it all just completely fell into place. You know, there was a time in my life and I’m sure a lot of people can relate to this and you feel really aggressive towards yourself and you really feel almost in a negative way you would like to either cut yourself or burn yourself or damage yourself and I really felt that, that was such a shame such a cruel. I mean, it’s such a negative energy, why would you want to inflict that on your body and permanently wear that? And I think…

SL: You must have clients coming to you occasionally that…

B: No, not at all.

SL: No?

B: No, because I think if a person is going to, if a person is going to do something negative towards their body they’re going to do it themselves.

SL: Right.

B: They’re not going to go to a professional and we’re going to sit and talk about this and how you would like the design, they’re not going to sit and do all that stuff so, just so that I can damage them you know, it’s, and I think for me it’s such a shame that I was thinking in such a way that I needed, I still needed to vent in that way but I needed to turn it into art. And I think the energies is so completely different and it’s like creating something positive on your body and venting that energy as opposed to creating something negative on your body and you know having to wear that the rest of your life and having to think oh man, I mean I’ve done, I’ve branded people who I had to fix up what they’ve damaged or cover up what they’ve damaged. One person in particular had you know hack marks all over his arm and they were quite, quite large and it was so visible and they were done in such a way that you just knew, you could just look at a person, you could tell you know they had a tough life.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: But he wanted to cover this up and we designed a little um, a little branding, well I guess not that little, I guess it was a half sleeve.

SL: Almost like a Kandinsky design.

B: Yeah, it was very kind of abstract you know.

SL: Yeah.

B: But it was done in such a way that it turned his negative energy into something positive, it turned it into art. And I think he’s quite happy with it.

SL: So there you weren’t just an artist you were a bit of a healer in that as well.

B: Yeah, I think in some ways. I mean, I think in my work sometimes I’m a bit of a healer anyways because I’ve met customers who really need to learn how to meditate and I had time. And it was like, “Oh god if I’m fifteen minutes late it ain’t gonna kill me.”

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: And I basically sit with them and talk with them about meditation and teach them how to do meditation. It’s not necessarily a religious thing at all, it’s about learning how to get your own shit together in whatever way you find is suitable but it’s basically about getting your shit together and there’s something nice about working with people and um, you know getting to have small opportunities, little smidgens of you know helping people here and there. You know, I’m not sure how long we have but, a friend of mine told me something and he said, “There’s nothing more exceptional than a person who can work with people.” And he said that, “It’s one of the hardest jobs you can do regardless if you do, if you’re a physician, whether you work with acupuncture, whether you work with hair, or whether you do you know body modifications and stuff. It’s quite a stressful job and it’s quite a hard job you know working on that kind of level with people especially when it’s something very permanent. But it, there’s also something you can grow in such a way and you can grow on such a level that I think most people would find extremely hard to do if you are working in a factory somewhere.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: You know. And I think, I think it’s helped me a lot. I’m sure I’m always going to work with people. You know, whether, and I think also, I’m not sure if I’ll actually be a tattoo artist or if I’ll actually be, you know I don’t think I’ll be a tattoo artist. I’ve done hand poked tattoos on close friends but, I’m not sure I’ll actually be a piercer or what I’ll be doing in the future. But um, you know, life keeps on changing and I think maybe in the future I might do some healing work. Possibly. I don’t really want to stick myself to one specific career, because I don’t think that’s very healthy.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: I think just because you’re a piercer now doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll always be a piercer. And I think to make yourself so headstrong is just, it’s very, it’s just limiting yourself and I don’t really want to limit myself.

SL: Well like piercing on it’s own is inherently a pretty limited field. I mean you can only go so far with it.

B: You can only go so far, and you have to do something else. Absolutely.

SL: [affirmative noise] Or you, or you do, or what happens is, as has happened to a lot of the really great piercers who’ve been around a while you get to hate piercing.

B: You get to burn out. You hate piercing you burn out, and you just have to find ways to keep things moving, keep things changing. And you know change your perspective and stuff, and I just think it’s really important, that you know people shouldn’t just stick to doing, stick to doing what they’re doing I mean you always need the option of changing.

SL: You keep growing and learning, I mean you’ve been taking, what is it trumpet classes and dancin’.

B: Absolutely. [laugh] Photography, and surfing, what else have I done, my god, I don’t know. I’ve done so much. I took hang gliding once and I got my scuba diving license and I studied carnivorous plants and horticulture and I don’t know, karate [laugh]. That’s all my life.

SL: Now I don’t know if this an embarrassing question but I mean, the brands that you’ve got and the cuttings on your stomach, I mean they prove that you can, you can you know handle a great deal of, a great deal of discomfort.

B: Absolutely.

SL: But you’ve been getting tattooed under anesthetic. Um…why, why is that? Why, you know?

B: Yeah. Do you want to know why? Because I think, I think I’m not sure, but I think because of being vegan and I think also I’ve been tattooing my body and branding myself and piercing myself and pushing my limits so far for so long and on a physical level that I think it’s really hard on my system to get tattooed you know. Like for example, you know when you get tattooed, it hurts, your liver constricts because your body’s under stress and all your organs end up you know paying for it so you end up feeling you know quite irritable. And I think back when I was I think 20 years old, not that I’m that old [laugh] now back when I was 20 years old it was great, it was all a completely new experience to me. But I’ve been tattooing my legs almost solid black for such a long time doing this design that we’re working on that I, it’s just very difficult that I leave the place feeling like I got hit by a Mac truck you know and I’m just completely exhausted and to do all that and to be able to work on all my customers and to give them my attention or at least give them the attention that I think they would deserve it’s really hard to do that and get tattooed once a week. It’s just it’s impossible.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: And I think I’m not really concerned about being such a macho guy or such a man really I just wanna, I just wanna have nice work on my body. There’s definitely enough pain involved with healing it you know, and I’m really looking forward to doing another suspension hanging in the future. So, I think um, there comes a time and a place in life where you have to find a balance you know and I think my balance is, you know I’m planning on being completely tattooed, I know it’s probably going to take some time off of my life.

SL: What, I mean, what, I mean for the last, I’m not going to say for how many years but for the last number of years you know it’s been a constant constant process of body change for you.

B: Absolutely.

SL: Things always evolving, always evolving. What’s going to happen when that stops? I mean when your body is filled up, when you’ve got it where you want it, you know, and you’ve still got another sixty years to live?

B: Oh, it’s okay. [laugh] You know what, I swore I was not going to be tattooed after I’m thirty-five, because I really, I really want to get all my work done early. You know.

SL: Then you can get onto other things.

B: Then I can get onto other things, I can enjoy my life. I mean there is always going to be touchups. Like I said there’s always going to be suspension hangings. It’s such a spiritual, it’s such a spiritual and emotionally growing thing that I could never not do that. I mean, I don’t care how intense the pain is. It’s so worth it. You know, so that will always happen and um, I mean piercing is great, you can always take it out.

SL: What do you get, what do you get out of a suspension? What was that experience like?

B: Man, I learned a lot about myself and I learned a lot about people and I learned a lot about psychic energy and how and how it works and you know like, for example you know when you do a suspension hanging you are either going to take it as what I believe is being two different ways. You’re either going to accept it and become more physically in your body because you’re physically hanging and you can feel it there’s no doubt about it you can feel it. So you either become either more physically attached to your body or you can leave your body if you choose not to like it or if for some reason you find it difficult you can leave your body you know. For me I felt very, it was very easy to do a suspension I was so clear, my mind was so clear, and I pretty much knew what it was going to feel like, way in advance. It was almost like something I had done already, but after I did that I found I was so, so in my body that I could really feel everyone’s energy so clearly I could feel all the different issues and all their different problems and I could feel, I could feel the walls around me you know, it was quite, quite a difficult experience.

SL: [affirmative noise]

B: It was very difficult.

SL: Almost, almost like it opened you up.

B: It opened me up on such a huge level, and that’s such a good experience. I mean it was painful and it was difficult but I learned so much from it and I think um, I just can’t wait to do the next one. I can’t even imagine how it’s going to change me. You know it changed me so much doing the suspension, I was quite afraid of many things after you know I was afraid of other people’s energy you know being some people are so crude and so blah, so forceful you know I found it very difficult to separate myself between that. That’s also something I learned a lot in Borneo. I learned a lot about myself and I learned a lot about separating my energy from other people’s energy. That’s a whole other story, we’ll have to do that on another interview.

SL: Yeah, I think we, we got enough words still unsaid to fill another couple hours.

B: [laugh] Yeah.

SL: Maybe at some point what I’d like to do to is get a bunch of people who’ve done subincisions and you know do a round table show or…

B: Or people that have done suspensions and talk about that.

SL: That is actually what I meant to say. [laugh]

B: [laugh]

SL: I don’t know, if I’ll edit and correct myself or I’ll let the world know how foolish I am.

B: [laugh]

PB: [laugh]

SL: [laugh] Anyway, I think that we’ve hit our time limit. Blair, is there anything else that you want to let people know or…?

B: I don’t know. Just keep on growing. Keep on learning. I don’t know.

SL: [affirmative noise] So someone…

B: Maybe in ten years I won’t pierce anymore I’m going to be a waterfall builder, I’m going to be a world surfing traveler. Who knows?

SL: Nothing wrong with that.

B: [laugh]

[song]

Wow! You made it!

Anyway, I’m very happy to announce that thanks to help from some good friends, BME will be launching a video magazine this year. It’s first issue will be release fall/winter 2003 on DVD.

We’ve already begun filming, and our crew heads over to England in a month, and we are beginning plans for both a Scandinavian invasion and a two week filming tour of the mod scene in South America. It should be an amazing project!

Shannon Larratt
BMEzine.com

PS. So was this a Shannon-can’t-type cop-out?


Next week? It’s a surprise!